WaT ShOuLd I dO

its MELISSA TAN SING KIM'S 18th burfday on 25/1/2005... guess wat i went 2 thians hse at 9pm n we called 2 aussie2 wish her happy burfday.. she was so happee dat we called her.. yt was the 1st 2 call her ler... den followed by me n thian den later on sze hong.. dat blur fella forgot dat he got to call mel till i called n told him dat i've already called mel.. yesterday was a public holiday 4 PJ.. so all of my frens haf no college... since its a holiday so its a family day looo... woke up at 6.30am cos gtg do my passport... reach the stupid place around 7.15am the the is already dam bloudy long... dam it man... took the number den waited 4 my turn... lucky it didnt take a long time till my turn... everythin was done by 10am.. so me n dad went 4 breakfast at kine while mom n bro's came n join us also... after breakfast went home n i went 2 sleep.. woke up at 1somethin.. every1 got ready n the whole family headed 2 ikea.. dad wanna buy things from ikea...practically we spent the whole afternoon in ikea.. we also had pur lunch there.. seriously the food in ikea is darn delicious n the price is reasonable...there is darn alot cute things in ikea... came back around 6somethin.. didnt do much afterdat... 2day i woke up n had breakfast wif the family in the kitchen.. after dat i was folding the clothes while watching the last episode of the japanese series thian borrowed me... den drove mom 2 buy lunch 4 every1.... came back ate lunch n i was on9 chatting wif whoever i c on9... later on at almost 2pm i went out 2 meet thain fan jamie n kamtong in taylors... afterdat i parked my car n jumped in2 fan's car den we headed 2 sunway college to pick teng up den we went 2 piramid... thian bought sushi 4 jhwa n we went 2 the back stairs 2 pass him the sushi.. we chatted 4 awhile there ler.... teng went off wif thian 2 talk.. she looked dam moody which i dunno y.. hope she feels better after telling thian ler... so me fan kamtong n jamie went n buy crispy popiah n 1901 n eat... den jamie went 2 tuti-frutti n bought dis drink.. dam nice man... we went 2 meet yt n thian.. we den left back 2 taylors cos thian gotta b back at taylors be4 4pm.. reach taylors so thian n jamie went down the car n jamie went in2 McD.. me fan ktong n yt was waiting 4 han in the car his class ends at 4pm... han finally came n all 5 of us were sitting in the car while abu standing outside chatting wif us.. so funny... 4.20 we left Mcd n fan drop me 2 get my car n i came home.. was darn tired n mood seems 2 change a lil.. i dun like dat change.. came home n didnt do much....chat wif mel on9 n i feel so nice talking 2 her.. hahaha.. she told me somethin dat happen 2 her 2day.. wow.. it gave me a heart attack man.. i guess she feel worst...dis few days yt also got on9... hehe so good.. chat wif her almost everyday which made me happee ler.. been thinking alot lately.. i really dunno wat 2 do about it.. after dat incident i seems 2 lose confident in us.. i seems 2 not care about it anymore.. i seems not giving a dam 2 anything anymore.. i dun seems taking initiative 2 start conversations.. i dun send sms call or even miss call.. my phone is also dead silent form dat ringtone.. gosh wats gone wrong in me?? am i changing?? the feeling is gone?? i dun wanna continue it anymore?? i wanna put a full stop 2 it?? i'm lost n i dunno wat 2 do.. i dunno wat i want... Anyway i'm officially flying of 2 switzerland on 3/3/2005 at 11.45pm aboarding MAS airline flying straight 2 Zurich.. the air flight is confirmed.. its 36 days from now till the day i'm leaving.. there is so lil time left be4 i leave.. i haven start any preparation 4 it yet.. gosh its not good n i'm gonna make myself start preparing or atleast list down wat i need 2 bring n get.. last min packing is bad cos i'll b leaving 4 a year n i need 2 ensure everythin is ok.. i've already started 2 think about me leaving everythin i haf in malaysia n leave.. i'm already missing my frens so much n i really miss mel alotz.. now i oni know dats i'm gonna spent the time i haf wif my frens n family...