Yay!!!!!!!!!!!! I am done with my 1st Assignment of the semester.. Okay okay I am late.. two hour later than my expected due time (personal fix due time).... BUT I FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cross fingers that its gonna b fine...

My very 1st Assignment for this semester will due in 70hours time.. whereas I only have 50hours to finish and submit my Assignment... Since I wont be coming to Uni on Friday, I will have to finish up the assignment and submit it on Thursday before I leave uni.. It is a goal I shall achieve and to work towards it....

I am currently still in library struggling and figuring out how to write my Organisational Behaviour assignment.. Besides the 3hour tutorial I have, I practically spend the rest of the time today (minus off 1hour I went walking around for a break n for a food) in the library cracking my head for the Assignment since 9am.. I myself was shock with my ability to keep myself in the Library.. perhaps this is what stress do to me.. so this show nothing is Impossible... hahahaha... I spend 4hours going through journals and picking out the points for my assignment... I went to the Lecturer at 3pm and to find out I was out of track... I was totally doomed at that point... Think on the brighter side, I should b glad I went to the lecturer to ask something and found out I was on the wrong track... I won't want to imagine how will it be to find out I was on the wrong track after I submitted my Assignment.. This Assignment is carries 25% of my final grade.. So if I fail this assignment, I can forget about passing this Unit already..

I shall and will make sure I get myself on track and finish up this assignment by Thursday afternoon...

Smiles :)

Weird people I see today.. While I was driving to Uni on LDP today, There is this man that was standing beside the divider at the middle of the road(the divider that separates the traffic for both direction).. I dunno how he got there and what was he trying to do cos I do not see any car that happen to stop anywhere near where he was standing.. While I was driving home from uni, on LDP again there is this guy that was crossing the highway, climbing over the divider trying to get to the opposite side... This people is either insane or just think their life is worthless tt they risk their life like this.. Than when I was driving to temple just now, on Jalan Damansara (Consider highway with constant heavily traffic/speeding cars) there is this man that was walking along the side of the road against the traffic flow.. Again I wander, why is he walking there?? what was he trying to do?? its already dark and care couldn't see him when they are turning pass the corner, they might just hit him.. who would expect someone to be walking on a highway....

OB Assignment is due this Friday.. I am only at 10%... this is way bad cos I have to finish my Assignment by Thursday and submit it by Thursday itself because I won't be in Uni on Friday.. I already got all my journals and only read thru some.. I have to read thru them and get the points to do the literature review (75% of the assignment is based on literature review and balance 25% is reflective writing)... this Assignment consist 25% of my final grade so its a very crucial Assignment.. ARGH... so lost.......

I use to think or rather I still do now... If one day I die, will there be anyone that will b sad for me?? what will be my regrets if I suddenly die and I've no chance to bid goodbye to those dear to me... Its stupid to think of such things but this often hits me and get me thinking... There is so much that I wanna do and so much words that I wanna spill to those that has left marks in my life... But life is all about impermenance and changes.. I admit I feel insecure most of the time.. towards my surroundings, towards the people around me.. so I always tend to keep things back to myself...*Random*

Always I happen to do things I end up regretting.. Things that I myself feel so stupid over it.. when things happen, Its just me myself and I that shall be blame... The more I wanna make things better, the worst I made things.. I shall b glad I have forgiving people around me to forgive me and giving me chances to improve and change..

Thank you for being there

for forgivng

for cheering me up during the bad times

for sharing my happiness and sorrow

for teaching me

for guiding me

for all that you have done

I shall hope to not let you down again...

I always tend to blog when its Raining outside... perhaps its when the moods get slightly emo which got me blogging.. School holidays started so the cars on the road has reduce terribly alot... What a smooth drive to n back from Uni today... I believe its gonna b a smooth sailing traffic this whole week...

I wander....... Is it me that is moving too slow or that time is moving too fast........ Its already week3 of Uni.. I have a presentation tomorrow, a 2oooword OB assignment due next Friday(Week 4), Marketing Strategy group assignment due next next Thursday (week 5) 2000word IB assignment due next next next Tuesday(Week 6)... there isn't time 2 move slowly.. its either I pick up the FAST pace or i'll suffer thru the rest of the sem for not being able to catch up... ARGHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... I am lack of the push.. the motivation to Study..

I can finally talk normally.. I had not one but TWO ulser right at the tip of my tongue for a week n more... PAIN... In the nites of sleep, i will wake up tearing cos of the pain from the ulser.. when u r asleep, u r not concious of the movement of the tongue, so when the tip of the tongue happen to hav contact with the teeth or any part in the mouth, it is SO PAIN tt I will jurk n wake up feeling tears in the eye.. It took me 3h to just eat a bun.. not to forget also i could still talk alot with the dreadful n painful ulser... hahahha...

I had lighted a light for year 2009 in the temple....

A green lotus Candle

A green lotus I chose because it meant something to me

A colour I never regret choosing

A wish I made

To have a better year ahead

To do well in my studies

To be in good health

To hav a smooth sailing year

To B able to stand strong and over come obstacles

To not give up but keep trying

Not to lose Hope but keep having Faith

To know I am not alone for I have you

A prayer I made for me and those dear to me

and let the candle shine the way

A day spend home was all I need... It has been Months ago since I last spend a day at home.. Since I started my internship in December, my weekdays are working days, Saturday also I work half day and my Sundays are all dedicated to BISDS... the only time is Saturday afternoon and most of it I will go out... On Public holidays where I do not have to work, I will b out.. so I practically don't spend much time at home...

Finally today I decided to not go out but stay home n spend some time with my mom.. I used my day to clean up my room.... For those who know me, u'll know how messy is my room especially my study table.. u can never see the table top cos its always stack with with loads of things... besides ME MYSELF AND I, its hard for anyone to try find stuff from my table cos they will never find it.. To be frank, if my bookshelf did not fall off on Sunday, I wouldn't have clean my room.. hahaha.. so now i have a slightly change to the positions of the things on my table.. I decided to not put back the shelf that came off cos I dun wan it to fall again and land on my laptop.. I had brunch with my mom this morning than went Tesco for grocery shopping with her also.. Haven spend time with mom for a very long time d...

Here is some updates about my life lately...

Went back to CHS to visit Mr Lim in February.. It has been quite awhile since we go back to CHS.. High school memories are always fresh in mind.. Sitting inside QM room just brought back all the memories, all the silly things we did, how was our life back in high school...

This Picture was taken way back in 2006

This pic was taken when We went back In February

Han, me, Fan

Rodney, Mr Lim, Teng

Quarter Master

My internship has officially ended on the 28th of February.. We had a department Dinner in the The Ship as my farewell... BUT haha i'm back working part time with them.. hahahaha... so I got a very delicious free meal!!!!!! so far I quite like working there.. The people are nice and they are very willing to teach you... I do enjoy everyday of work despite the work stress... :) So now I am working half day (mornings) and the afternoon back to uni for classes...

Had quite a number of Fairytaler outing BUT it will only be updated in the next post (which I dunno when)... I wanted to blog everything today but MELISSA TAN SING KIM dun wanna send me the pics so I cant blog.. Pic speaks a thousand words.. haha so will update that when I get the pictures...

Uni has officially started last week... Feels so good to be back in Uni but I feel really weird being back in Uni...good cos finally classes are starting again n I am seeing my uni friends again.. :) Weird cos a lot familiar faces are not around.. Wai Chien is in Aussie for the entire year, I haven seen Simran at all(we just couldn't meet up cos our class time are just so different, besides we only have lecture last week so shorter time in Uni as well).. Good thing I still got classes with Kim Han and Tee Yew so it isn't too bad after all.. Back in Uni now, I dunno where to go during breaks.. Musa doesn't seem to be a place I wanna hang out anymore.. so now my new found place will be the library.. hopefully I will be able to stick myself in Library n do some studies.. I shall improve myself and not do anymore last min work n studies... Consistent studying is my goal to achieve.. Last semester result has hit me so hard that it took me just so long to get up again.. I shall n will not allow myself to let history repeat itself... ONCE is more than enough.. Anyway, the new intake has the largest population... I heard it was round 150%... so now uni is full with new faces..

Thank you for always being there

to give me support

to hear me out

to understand me

Having u around

will always make my day

colours is all I see with u around

Last weekend has been quite a tough weekend... FRI SAT N SUN..3 continuous day was people close at heart leaving to Aussie.... Friday was Wai Chien Leaving to Melb for her 1year exchange... Saturday was Yee Teng leaving back to Melb to get her PR and to get a job there.. Sunday was JianHwa leaving to Perth to further his studies... Each of them has taken a part of me together when they left...

There is so much that I wanna say but words aren't there to express...

It is raining so heavily outside and thundering.. I dunno why I chose to blog at this moment when I know at any given time, the thunder might just struck and there goes my laptop.. just 5mins ago, the electricity tripped..

Chinese new year is Half way gone already.. Didn't have much of the CNY feel this year.. probably because for the 1st time since I was born, I didnt go back to Ipoh for CNY.. Every year without fail, we'll go back to Ipoh on the 2nd day of CNY for at least a nite.. This year is entirely in KL so it just feel like normal.. There is almost no one around town n everyone is back at their home town celebrating CNY...

During the CNY break, I went for a 2days trip down to Malacca with Melissa, Fan, Han, Kamtong and Teck Ming.. to me, it is a small holiday... a break from work out of town.. free and easy... slow pace.. no rushing.. it was a good trip... relax but not considered rest cos we stayed up till 5am so we got kinda exhausted by the end of the trip..

Back to work today.. Office is very very quiet.. A lot of people are either still on Leave or they went for the company Tour... from the time i entered office till lunch, I was sorting documents and when I get back from lunch I continued sorting documents till almost 3pm.. finish up the rest of the work and i still had 15mins to spare before i clock out at 5pm.. so i was reading The Star on9 news paper to kill time...

Someone close at heart....

For the times we don't talk

For the times we can't stop talking

To the times we laugh

To the times we cry

During the times we sing

At the wrong melody and lyrics

Under the sun we walk

Under the rain we run

Journey of life never stops

U have play an important part in me

For who I am today

I have truly understood

What is giving from within

Not expecting returns

But only to see a Smile on your face

You made me a better person

Experiencing the happiness that money can't buy

To know how to care for others

To be more sensitive towards others

To think before I talk

To think of others but not only myself

U have been there with me

Thru thick and thin

Thru rain and sun

Thank you for all that u've done

No matter where the future leads us

It doesn't matter how far apart we are

You will always be close to me

A place in the heart that will never fade

And I will always be your friend

To be there in times of need

Still there even if you don't need me

Hey people!!!! Chinese New Year is round the corner... BUT a lot of people are falling sick... most are down with cough and/or flu..... Please people!!! take good care of yourselves.. drink loads of water and stay healthy ya!!!!!

I have been enjoying my days... Passing everyday with new memories and learning new things... Exhausted and tired but its worth for all that I've gain in return... Work is so far still okay, just that workloads are getting more n more, responsibility also more and more HENCE OT also more!!!!! bare in mind its unpaid OT cos intern doesn't get paid for doing OT... Spending times with my darlings have been great too...

Sure hope this is gonna be a smooth sailing year ahead....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time has come to bid goodbye to 2008 and the arrival of 2009......... Have a great year ahead everyone!!!!!!!!!!!! Hugs and Kisses...

It was a quiet and pleasant new year eve for me.. I truly enjoy the quiet n calmness to welcome a brand new year and spending it with those that is dear to me... muaxx... As those close to me would know I will never miss the fireworks... This year there was a slight change of place to watch the fireworks... I was on the way home to watch the fireworks from the playground... I was outside 1utama just 2min drive away from home and it was only 11.55pm.. Suddenly I heard the fireworks... I look forward and I saw the curve have started shooting fireworks, than 1utama followed.. the traffic wasn't moving so Wai Chien and I sat in the car looking at the fireworks that shooting up to the sky from 1utama n The Curve.. I was superbly engross and admiring the fireworks.. My neck got abit stiff after the entire 15mins but to me its all worth.. hahaha... I watch the fireworks from my car... Anyway this year, the fireworks from 1utama is nicer than the Curve... I just LOVE fireworks...........

After that it was a superb early morning spent at Melissa's place.. I reach her hse around 2.15am when most people left already.. spend a nite (rather its morning d) at her place.. help her clean up and everything it was already almost 6am...chatted with Melissa till 7am only we went to sleep in the guess room.. Fan was knock out d so he was sleeping in the guess room as we chatted in her room.. As good start of the year, I went over to my grandps'a place after a mere 4hour of sleep to help my aunt make Chinese new year cookies..

I am mentally n physically exhausted as I am ending this post.. I truly believe and will try my very best to make this a better year.. A more improved me... Mistakes shall be avoided and lessons have been well learnt.. It has been a full year of serious ups and downs.. Sincerly I would like to apologize to those who I've done wrong, offended, upset in any way... and I would also like to thank everyone for making 2008 such a memorable year for me..

The Start of a new year, a new vision, a new mission...

I lost my dear Pillow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Disappointed, sad and angry... I couldn't relocate it.. Pretty sure it wasn't me that lost it.. It should have fell off my car when my brothers fren got down the car when he went out with my car on Tuesday nite... but how can they not realise!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh!!!!!really upset.........

Pillow oh my dear Pillow.. where are u??? I am mourning over you as I cannot find you.. I wouldn't be able to see you anymore... You have been my accompany for a whole complete year, going to places with me.. I am never alone in the car because u were there for me, giving comfort to me.. A great companion u were passing through crying n laughing days with me.. You have been something that is so dear to me... I was lost and completely speechless when I realise u were gone.. You aren't just any random pillow.. You meant something to me and u were a gift to me........ I am sorry I lost u... I miss u dearly!!!!

A quick and short updates........

I am dead tired now as I am typing this post...

To those of you who don't know, I am working now.. I started my internship last Thursday and will be working till 28th of February.. Uni starts on 2nd March.. which means there is No More Holidays for me but oni Working.. I am working 6days a week.. Monday to Friday, Saturday Half day.. So far I am enjoying my work, even though everyday also I will work overtime and Never Have i left office sharp at 5pm it really doesnt matter.....

Life has been pretty good so far.. Good as in nothing bad happen.. life is just normal.. the only bad thing that happen was my result... I failed one subject... Never have i expect it to happen but yet it happen.. So all I can do it to accept the fact and face the cruel reality...

more to update soon.. off to sleep now!!!! its almost 12am..

The sun rises every morning and the moon takes over in the nite.. Everyday is a new start, a brand new page in life.. there are many phases in life that we have go through.. Life is never smooth running as it comes with loads of ups and down...It comes in a package.. we have brought it together with us when we very 1st arrive in this world.. Know that we're never alone walking in our lifes.. There is always someone that is there by ur side through thick n thin, ups n down, sun or rain.. never give up on u, never leave u alone.. Believe in urself.. Ur inner strenght is the drive that will pull you through.. We decide how we wanna walk the path...

梦想被摧毁了

对不起,令你们失望了...

We celebrated Michelle's birthday in Italiannies two Fridays ago.. It wasdefinitely a LATE dinner.. Late as in the arrival of people was SO LATE... I was late by almost an hour... when I arrive, there was only 3person that is there.. only at almost 9pm that everyone seem to arrive... The birthday gal arrived at almost 9pm when she planned and inform us to be there at 7.45pm.... hahaha.. Since when is MICHIE on time!!!!!! hahaha...

Group Picture

Michie's birthday is on the 15/11 and Adam's birthday was on the 14/11, so they blow the cake together..

MIchie and Adam

Chee Hoe has planned and prepare a surprise for Michie as we count down for her birthday... KimHan took charge of keeping Michie in Republic while Agus, Chee Chan and I help Chee Hoe prepare his surprise.. OMG, he was such a sweet friends.. he has wrap alluminuim foil around 171 candles all by himself...

Arranging and lighting up the candles..

TA DAA..... Chee Hoe's Master Piece with the birthday gal...

Picture with Michie and her candles

Last but not least, Me and the Birthday gal

Than it was Adam's birthday party last Friday...

Angie, Me, Adam, Michie and Elaine

Picture of people from Monash and Adam

After Adam's party, I went out with Kam Tong and Soo Fan... we were suppose to go yamcha and Soo fan had a better suggestion that supposedly its a nice place to chill.. Bukit Gasing.. we went there and actually I find that place very scary and dangerous.. We chill there for awhile and had our "drinking" session.. a superbly healthy drinking session.. cos we drank Chocolate milk... haha another of Soo Fan's brilliant idea...

Saturday was Wai Jane's 21st birthday party... I went out earlier to Midvalley with Kamtong to buy her birthday present and than head back to my hse to wrap her present and made her birthday card.. I was to wrap the present and Kamtong to make the card... The twins can and pick us and head down to WaiJane's party around 8.45pm... We were so hungry and so 4 of us ate a lot...

Me and the birthday gal WaiJane

Me, Kayin, KamTong, WaiJane, SooFan, SooHan... the CHS people in her party

After WaiJane's party was Fairytale drinking session in Melissa's hse... we 1st went back to my hse so I can get my clothes and some drinks, than to Kamtong's hse to get some more drinks and than to 7-11 to get the mixers and than finally to Melissa's hse to start our bonding session... Jhwa came n join us at Mel's hse.. OMG we laugh so much that We were trying to catch our breath cos of the game.. Kamtong was the GOner that nite.. Because of him, I am saved from being the goner.. thank god... anyway I am still waiting for Mel to send me the pics!!!!

Kam Tong fell asleep in the Mamak... after drinking at mel's place

I am still stoning and wasting my time doing nothing at home everyday.. I still haven get any job... Just went for another interview on Monday and will have to wait till end of this week if I get the internship job...

Exams are over and I am officially on Holidays already.. 4months of holiday................... I was waiting for hols so eagerly but now when its here, I am so bored of doing nothing at home... Have been applying for internship but getting no response.. so for now, I am rotting at home everyday... my daily routine goes around, sleep-eat-watch tv-on9... sooner or later, my mom is gonna kick me out of the house to do something...

There is so much that has happen so here is just the brief updates...

BISDS Appreciation nite falls on the 1st November... The event was held in the mist of my exam period.. I am glad that I was given a chance to be part of it... It was such a nite to remember... I had move around, ran around so much for preparation as well as for the beginning of the event.. from asoka hall to resource room to main gate to canteen to car park... I was to be found anywhere.. the amount of steps I took come up to kilometers of distances in total.. But it was all worth it.. Special thanks to Han, Fan and Ktong for coming to help me.. A personal help i got from them.. The event went on quite smoothly with just a lil hiccups here n there.. things was all in our controls.. The performances were great.. The slide show was excellent... the food was not too bad I heard... By the end of the event, I could barely get myself to move.. With the cooperation from all, help and guidance, we have made it happen together...

Exams was like HELL... TORTUROUS.. my previous post is enough to express the stress i was having.. I am glad that exams is over.. It was such a dreadful 3weeks... I have no idea what I am going to do for my 4months holiday...Its has only been 2weeks and I am dying already... I am still looking for job but i still have not get any response yet...

November 8, 2008 marks the beginning of a new journey of life for the both of them..

Chui Yoong and Kam Fai

I attended their wedding dinner in Flower Drum KL... It was such a splendid nite... The nite that after SOOOO OO long that we manage to gather everyone again... It was always atleast a missing someone whenever there is gathering... and now on this auspicious nite, we all came together to wish and congratulate this sweet couple who finally tie the knot after so many years.. =>

My IMC paper is an hour away... I am so stress now.. I cannot remember anything... I am getting nervous breakdown... I wanna cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I tried every way to make myself feel better, to not fee so stress but nothing is working.. I can feel my hand is shivering, my body is shivering.....

Here I am blogging again..

I am still in the library trying to understand trade finance... glad now I am understanding something... but can this little something help me pass my paper tomorrow??? Will I be able to remember it and write it back out tomorrow?? Will what I understand come out for exam tomorrow??? I dunno... I just can hope to pass... Nothing more than that I will ask for...

I need a fully functional brain to understand Trade finance.. its so complicated to me.. My brain is only half functioning now!!! oh gosh!!!!

Off i'm going back to stick my face into my lecture notes...

I am at tears now..

I cant understand trade finance

The moment I finish reading the sentence, I'm blank again

I cannot concentrate

My mind is everywhere..

Exam is at 1.30pm tomorrow and I am ZERO...

I am as blank as an empty paper..

I am feeling so horrible that I feel like giving up!!!!

:'(

Two Papers down and two more to go...

This is my 3rd semester in Monash.. My 3rd time sitting for end semester examination... BUT....... This is the 1st time I did not go for a toilet break during exams... This is the 1st time I did not put a single sweet into my mouth during exam.. This is the 1st time I did not drink a sip of water during the exam... This is the 1st time I didn't spend more than 5min staring into the space during the exam... This is the 1st time that I notice there is rarely people who goes for toilet break... This is the 1st time that I seen no one left the exam hall early.. There is so many 1st time that I encountered today... I was STRESS...

International Financial Management... was the paper I had today.. I really have to salute the guy that sat next to me cos he did the examination without a Calculator... out of 6 questions, there is 3 that requires calculation... not those 1+1 = 2 simple calculation... its the more complicated where u have to convert the currencies, multiply into thousands etc... so I guess Its just either he is so good and fast in calculation tt he doesn't need a calculator, or he just plain gave up on this paper.. I went in exam hall quite confident but came out feeling quite bad and nowfelling horrible as I realise there is more mistake I made.. All I can hope now is that I pass this Paper..

I had my Marketing Research Method paper last Thursday.. Wasn't too bad hopefully nothing goes wrong and I pass the paper...

My Next paper is on Friday which is a day away... I totally freak out on this paper.. Trade Finance and Foreign Exchange... I totally cannot understand a single thing I am reading... I am just so clueless on how i'm gonna walk in the exam hall on Friday hoping to pass when I know nothing...

My last paper fall on 5th november.. Next Wednesday... Integrated Marketing Communication..

Not aiming high.. I will be glad that I pass my papers... just abit more expectation to get credit but well PASSING all is my Biggest hope...

十字路口

人的一生, 都会走到许许多多的十字路口...

小时候, 当我们走到十字路口的时候, 都有父母帮我们决定方向... 带领我们继续向前走, 走向光明... 父母从不会带领我们走向黑暗... 当我们渐渐长大了,父母也开始慢慢的放手让我们自己决定我们要走的方向... 让我们学习独立, 让我们从错误中学习, 学会跌到了就要勇敢的爬起来.. 不放弃...

走到十字路口, 脚步都会慢下来... 因为需要思考下一步... 很多时候,去到十字路口就会感到无奈与无助... 很矛盾, 不知道应该向左走还是向右走或是继续向前走.... 虽然如此, 始终都需要做个决定, 继续我们人生的路程...

每当我们决定了方向就相等与我们放弃了其他的选择... 很多时候, 放弃了, 就相等于失去了... 没办法再回头改变方向...

选择了就要勇敢继续向前进....

记得我爱你-曾国辉

跟你 一起 我想应该值得庆幸

保护是天生的力气

忘记 提醒 还有那些你教我的

昨天你给了我 今天我照顾你

记得你不善言辞的给我许多鼓励

记得我总是发了不该发的牛脾气

我可以放弃一切也能不放弃

你都是最后原因

记得我看着你的背影偷偷说感激

记得你总是为了小小事情而担心

若有天你开始模糊了记忆

你只要记得 记得我爱你

还你 爱你 别到最后才觉可惜

付出不是天经地义

所以 疼你 直到你白发在飘逸

今天我要珍惜 明天还要继续

就算全都忘记 记得我多爱你