梦想被摧毁了

对不起,令你们失望了...

We celebrated Michelle's birthday in Italiannies two Fridays ago.. It wasdefinitely a LATE dinner.. Late as in the arrival of people was SO LATE... I was late by almost an hour... when I arrive, there was only 3person that is there.. only at almost 9pm that everyone seem to arrive... The birthday gal arrived at almost 9pm when she planned and inform us to be there at 7.45pm.... hahaha.. Since when is MICHIE on time!!!!!! hahaha...

Group Picture

Michie's birthday is on the 15/11 and Adam's birthday was on the 14/11, so they blow the cake together..

MIchie and Adam

Chee Hoe has planned and prepare a surprise for Michie as we count down for her birthday... KimHan took charge of keeping Michie in Republic while Agus, Chee Chan and I help Chee Hoe prepare his surprise.. OMG, he was such a sweet friends.. he has wrap alluminuim foil around 171 candles all by himself...

Arranging and lighting up the candles..

TA DAA..... Chee Hoe's Master Piece with the birthday gal...

Picture with Michie and her candles

Last but not least, Me and the Birthday gal

Than it was Adam's birthday party last Friday...

Angie, Me, Adam, Michie and Elaine

Picture of people from Monash and Adam

After Adam's party, I went out with Kam Tong and Soo Fan... we were suppose to go yamcha and Soo fan had a better suggestion that supposedly its a nice place to chill.. Bukit Gasing.. we went there and actually I find that place very scary and dangerous.. We chill there for awhile and had our "drinking" session.. a superbly healthy drinking session.. cos we drank Chocolate milk... haha another of Soo Fan's brilliant idea...

Saturday was Wai Jane's 21st birthday party... I went out earlier to Midvalley with Kamtong to buy her birthday present and than head back to my hse to wrap her present and made her birthday card.. I was to wrap the present and Kamtong to make the card... The twins can and pick us and head down to WaiJane's party around 8.45pm... We were so hungry and so 4 of us ate a lot...

Me and the birthday gal WaiJane

Me, Kayin, KamTong, WaiJane, SooFan, SooHan... the CHS people in her party

After WaiJane's party was Fairytale drinking session in Melissa's hse... we 1st went back to my hse so I can get my clothes and some drinks, than to Kamtong's hse to get some more drinks and than to 7-11 to get the mixers and than finally to Melissa's hse to start our bonding session... Jhwa came n join us at Mel's hse.. OMG we laugh so much that We were trying to catch our breath cos of the game.. Kamtong was the GOner that nite.. Because of him, I am saved from being the goner.. thank god... anyway I am still waiting for Mel to send me the pics!!!!

Kam Tong fell asleep in the Mamak... after drinking at mel's place

I am still stoning and wasting my time doing nothing at home everyday.. I still haven get any job... Just went for another interview on Monday and will have to wait till end of this week if I get the internship job...

Exams are over and I am officially on Holidays already.. 4months of holiday................... I was waiting for hols so eagerly but now when its here, I am so bored of doing nothing at home... Have been applying for internship but getting no response.. so for now, I am rotting at home everyday... my daily routine goes around, sleep-eat-watch tv-on9... sooner or later, my mom is gonna kick me out of the house to do something...

There is so much that has happen so here is just the brief updates...

BISDS Appreciation nite falls on the 1st November... The event was held in the mist of my exam period.. I am glad that I was given a chance to be part of it... It was such a nite to remember... I had move around, ran around so much for preparation as well as for the beginning of the event.. from asoka hall to resource room to main gate to canteen to car park... I was to be found anywhere.. the amount of steps I took come up to kilometers of distances in total.. But it was all worth it.. Special thanks to Han, Fan and Ktong for coming to help me.. A personal help i got from them.. The event went on quite smoothly with just a lil hiccups here n there.. things was all in our controls.. The performances were great.. The slide show was excellent... the food was not too bad I heard... By the end of the event, I could barely get myself to move.. With the cooperation from all, help and guidance, we have made it happen together...

Exams was like HELL... TORTUROUS.. my previous post is enough to express the stress i was having.. I am glad that exams is over.. It was such a dreadful 3weeks... I have no idea what I am going to do for my 4months holiday...Its has only been 2weeks and I am dying already... I am still looking for job but i still have not get any response yet...

November 8, 2008 marks the beginning of a new journey of life for the both of them..

Chui Yoong and Kam Fai

I attended their wedding dinner in Flower Drum KL... It was such a splendid nite... The nite that after SOOOO OO long that we manage to gather everyone again... It was always atleast a missing someone whenever there is gathering... and now on this auspicious nite, we all came together to wish and congratulate this sweet couple who finally tie the knot after so many years.. =>

My IMC paper is an hour away... I am so stress now.. I cannot remember anything... I am getting nervous breakdown... I wanna cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I tried every way to make myself feel better, to not fee so stress but nothing is working.. I can feel my hand is shivering, my body is shivering.....

Here I am blogging again..

I am still in the library trying to understand trade finance... glad now I am understanding something... but can this little something help me pass my paper tomorrow??? Will I be able to remember it and write it back out tomorrow?? Will what I understand come out for exam tomorrow??? I dunno... I just can hope to pass... Nothing more than that I will ask for...

I need a fully functional brain to understand Trade finance.. its so complicated to me.. My brain is only half functioning now!!! oh gosh!!!!

Off i'm going back to stick my face into my lecture notes...

I am at tears now..

I cant understand trade finance

The moment I finish reading the sentence, I'm blank again

I cannot concentrate

My mind is everywhere..

Exam is at 1.30pm tomorrow and I am ZERO...

I am as blank as an empty paper..

I am feeling so horrible that I feel like giving up!!!!

:'(

Two Papers down and two more to go...

This is my 3rd semester in Monash.. My 3rd time sitting for end semester examination... BUT....... This is the 1st time I did not go for a toilet break during exams... This is the 1st time I did not put a single sweet into my mouth during exam.. This is the 1st time I did not drink a sip of water during the exam... This is the 1st time I didn't spend more than 5min staring into the space during the exam... This is the 1st time that I notice there is rarely people who goes for toilet break... This is the 1st time that I seen no one left the exam hall early.. There is so many 1st time that I encountered today... I was STRESS...

International Financial Management... was the paper I had today.. I really have to salute the guy that sat next to me cos he did the examination without a Calculator... out of 6 questions, there is 3 that requires calculation... not those 1+1 = 2 simple calculation... its the more complicated where u have to convert the currencies, multiply into thousands etc... so I guess Its just either he is so good and fast in calculation tt he doesn't need a calculator, or he just plain gave up on this paper.. I went in exam hall quite confident but came out feeling quite bad and nowfelling horrible as I realise there is more mistake I made.. All I can hope now is that I pass this Paper..

I had my Marketing Research Method paper last Thursday.. Wasn't too bad hopefully nothing goes wrong and I pass the paper...

My Next paper is on Friday which is a day away... I totally freak out on this paper.. Trade Finance and Foreign Exchange... I totally cannot understand a single thing I am reading... I am just so clueless on how i'm gonna walk in the exam hall on Friday hoping to pass when I know nothing...

My last paper fall on 5th november.. Next Wednesday... Integrated Marketing Communication..

Not aiming high.. I will be glad that I pass my papers... just abit more expectation to get credit but well PASSING all is my Biggest hope...

十字路口

人的一生, 都会走到许许多多的十字路口...

小时候, 当我们走到十字路口的时候, 都有父母帮我们决定方向... 带领我们继续向前走, 走向光明... 父母从不会带领我们走向黑暗... 当我们渐渐长大了,父母也开始慢慢的放手让我们自己决定我们要走的方向... 让我们学习独立, 让我们从错误中学习, 学会跌到了就要勇敢的爬起来.. 不放弃...

走到十字路口, 脚步都会慢下来... 因为需要思考下一步... 很多时候,去到十字路口就会感到无奈与无助... 很矛盾, 不知道应该向左走还是向右走或是继续向前走.... 虽然如此, 始终都需要做个决定, 继续我们人生的路程...

每当我们决定了方向就相等与我们放弃了其他的选择... 很多时候, 放弃了, 就相等于失去了... 没办法再回头改变方向...

选择了就要勇敢继续向前进....

记得我爱你-曾国辉

跟你 一起 我想应该值得庆幸

保护是天生的力气

忘记 提醒 还有那些你教我的

昨天你给了我 今天我照顾你

记得你不善言辞的给我许多鼓励

记得我总是发了不该发的牛脾气

我可以放弃一切也能不放弃

你都是最后原因

记得我看着你的背影偷偷说感激

记得你总是为了小小事情而担心

若有天你开始模糊了记忆

你只要记得 记得我爱你

还你 爱你 别到最后才觉可惜

付出不是天经地义

所以 疼你 直到你白发在飘逸

今天我要珍惜 明天还要继续

就算全都忘记 记得我多爱你

Good Luck for Exam

Exams are really round the corner... It starts NEXT THURSDAY....

Good luck and all the best to ALL that will be sitting for exams...

Work hard and Study Smart!!!!! Take good care of yourselves... Non of us can afford to fall sick at this moment of time....

GOOD LUCK PEEPS

The other day when my msn personal message was "MRM MRM MRM.. Making me cry"... Dear YiXiong @ aba came asking me who was making me cry... I told him its not a person, its the subject I am taking which is called Marketing Research Methods (MRM) and the assignment is killing me and making me cry... Suddenly, Kamtong called me.. Asking me who made me cry?? Who is MR.M... He said YiXiong told him to call me, cos I am crying... I was so stun cos i already told Yixiong MRM is a subject not a person.. Kamtong was so speechless and he wanted to call yixiong that is all the way in Moscos to scream at him... haha...

As I was chatting with Yixiong now, I got the full story of what he told Kamtong the other day.. This Yixiong is so lame.... Read below =>

gyx says:

haha i bluff kamtong that mrm is mr.m

Looking For the light of Life says:

yes i know, he called me

gyx says:

HAHAHA

Looking For the light of Life says:

and i said i told u d is MRM not MRm.. than he was like wth!!! stupid aba bluff me

gyx says:

lol

haha i told him mr.m is ur new bf..

and u are sad coz he dun wanna watch movie with u haha

I just Love my aba... always and constantly entertaining me with his lameness...

BISDS has been a home to me for many many many years... I have been there since I was 6 years old if i'm not mistaken... I spend most my Sundays there from a young student, to a youth and now to be the staff serving the school.... I know all of us love BISDS for a reason.. The Kalyana Mitra's is the biggest reason and motivation for us to look forward to Sundays...

Today, I have discover that there is this someone who has a very very special and unique way to express her love to BISDS.... I proudly present you

KELLY TAN

She has put all the little flags on her head like decorations to express her unconditional love to the school... This can truly show how much she love BISDS..

Kelly, I am very kind d to put this pic and not the other picture I took that can see ur face clearly..

Exam is approaching.. But what am I doing??????????? ARGH...

Last but not least... To my youngest brother and to all those that will be sitting for PMR that begins tomorrow....... GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST.....

Ice Cream (Talk to me)-家好月圆English Theme Song

Talk to me

You speak with me

Don't sink before you rise baby

Don't fade away

You hesitate

You seem to wait

For all the time we had

Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok

We will make it through the night

Don't wanna wake up in this state

I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same

And i know that we'll never change

Look i bought your favourite ice cream

I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now

I don't know if we're gonna be the same

Baby just talk with me

Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories

The things we did

I locked inside my heart

Where i know i won't forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be ok

We will make it through the night

Don’t wanna wake up in this state

I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same

And I know that we'll never change

look I bought your favorite ice ream

I don’t want to see it melts away

If you walk out now

I don’t know if we could be the same

Baby just talk with me

Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

My New Phone fell on the floor yesterday.... IT FELL ON THE FLOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAM IT...

When my phone fell on the floor, I couldn't react to what happen... I was speechless, I couldn't say a word... I can feel the pain piercing right into my heart... I just pick up the phone and continue walking... Even thou my phone is in the pouch, but the fact that it fell on the fall, the impact the fall stills bothers me till now... :"(

When I decide to move on, I still end up at the same spot... Even if I manage to move forward a step, I will end up talking half step behind again...

Its reaching the end of week 12... Finally all Assignments are done... All Submitted and all left is Exam.... Cross fingers that I will pull through all my Assignments and not get ANYMORE FAILED assignments back..I cannot afford to fail anymore assignments if I want to pass all my subjects... Exams is just 13days away.. My exam falls on

23 October 2008 - Marketing Research Methods

29 October 2008 - International Financial Management

31 October 2008 - Trade Finance and Foreign Exchange

5 November 2008 - Integrated Marketing Communication

I dunno how I am going to Pull it through BUT I have to make sure I pull through it... STUDY STUDY STUDY....

1 week holiday ended.. and exams is just around the corner... :'(

Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I came back to Uni to do My MRM assignment... STRESSFUL....

My friend, Cindy from Switzerland came all the way to visit during my Holiday week... She stayed with me for the entire week.. I feel quite bad cos I couldn't bring her to many places... even I was having holiday, I had to come back to Uni to do my assignment.. Cannot do at home because 1. we have to use the SPSS program to analyse the data... the version I have in the house cannot support the amount of Data.. 2. its a group assignment so we have to do it together...

Cindy arrive on 27 September at 6am.. I had to wake up at 5am to go to KLIA.. I couldn't really recognize her because I haven seen for 2 and a half years.. We only keep in touch through MSN... She left back to Switzerland on the 4 October Nite...

During her stay here, Brought her to Melaka, F1 circuit, Putrajaya, Museum, Zoo, Shopping Malls, Mamak, KLCC, KL Tower n few more... Her trip down was too short so could go to many places.. It was so sweet and nice of her to come visit me.. Having her for that one week, reminds me so much of Switzerland.. The memories I had during my exchange year.. The Classmates... I miss it so much.. For the entire week, I had to speak French.. It was seriously difficult.. not having to speak French for 2 years, its practically almost all gone d..besides, not like i am very good in French.. I only learn and spoke it during my 12 months exchange in Swiss... That is also like can speak those basic things only...

During the Holidays, we had lunch with Joanna before she left back t India... She came back for a short break.. Joanna, Wai Chien, Kim Han, Tee Yew, Michelle and I went for lunch in Kim Gary... It was great having lunch together.. Just miss the good old times when we all have lunch together in Monash Cafeteria....

I had a very tiring Holiday... Didn't really have enough sleep... ITS HOLIDAY and yet It didn't at all felt like I was having holiday with the stupid assignment...

Its time for Birthday shout outs for September Babies.. My favourite MONTH of the year...

Happy Birthday Simran

I hope u enjoyed ur birthday

Enjoyed the lil surprise we had for you

u're such a great and helpful friend

Life will be dull without u around

not to forget, u have the most expensive asset of all

You have such a beautiful _ _ _

I'll just let people fill up the blanks themselves..

love you babe

Happy Birthday Sze Huey

My cute cute senior

Never have I meet a person who is able to guess ur age correctly at the 1st guess..

You are a great friend.. my kalyana mitra

a person who grow with me, work with me

Thank you for all the patience with me thru the years

I truly hope u had a wonderful and memorable birthday

take good care my dear

muaxx

Happy Birthday Jia Yen

To my dear sweetheart

who is always there to pamper me like a kid

thank you for putting up with me nonsense

I haven seen u in a long time

hope everything is going on well for u

work is good and u are happy =>

love ya gal.. muaxx

Happy Birthday Yixiong aka Aba

Happy birthday to my Aba...

HOpe u had a good birthday in Russia

Glad u never forget me, ur Lai lui

make sure u got get me souvenir when u go around the world..

keep me posted with ur holidays ya

Take care my future personal doctor

Muaxx Muaxx

Happy Birthday Vincent Oh aka Boss

This person has been my boss for many years

A great motivator, a great listener

Always has his way to make u work for him

Very caring and loving person

But always bully me!!!!

We are all waiting for ur moment..

09-09-09 is the day

hope u have enjoyed ur birthday

This post has been save as Draft since September 17th but I haven had the time to complete the post.. So finally here comes the post...

I've turn 21 already.. 11th September 2008...

Woke up earlier than usual as I've to go temple with my dad before go Uni.. After morning lecture, I went down to temple again for my b'day Dana with Mom and Dad........ BAck to Uni by 2pm for lecture...

My very 1st 21st year old present.... Hand made by Michie Wong.. thanks babe..

With drawing Somemore

Just the happy times

I had a small surprise from them.. Thanks to Kimhan, he rush down to get me a jelly cake thought he was sick.. Muaxx

Me and my Jelly cake..

Me and Kim Han.. Special thanx for the surprise..

Wai Chien and I

Me and Tee Yew

Me and Chee Hoe

Me and Simran

Me and Michie

The family picture without Joanna.. Chee Hoe, Tee Yew, Wai Chien, Me and Kim Han

Group pic.. thank dears for everything

We all went for dinner together at Station 1 in SS15... Me, Kimhan, Tee Yew, Wai Chien Michie, Alvin, Christina and Simran.... it was just a simple Dinner but I was very happy already.. just sat there eat n chit chat and laugh... I got my present from Wai Chien... An apple, a very sweet book and a wallet card. It was a very simple yet enjoyable birthday...

Friday, 12 September 2008, I had a small party at home to celebrate.. Stayed home to help prepare for the nite.. Went shopping in Jusco n Tesco with mom and dad to get stuffs for the party.. we're having BBQ and Steamboat...

my house was quite pack actually because its a small house... Just only my family members already I have like 16people, Uni friends, Kalyana Mitras, Swiss jakuns, Fairytalers almost 30person.. so its like about 50people... Good thing there is a park opposite my house where they will go n take some air there.. hehe... I really want to thank all that came and made my 21st birthday so memorable..

Poor Soo Han got bitten by my neighbours dog.. He wasn't even trying to disturb the dog but just trying to remove the garbage bag that was tied on the grill... The unlucky one!!! Hope his finger is okay by now.. Thank Jhwa for rushing Han to the clinic to get the injection..

My 21st Birthday cake.. from my Uni friends.. Muaxx

Me and my cake..

Me and my Family..

My cousins

Opps.. this isn't a ready shoot

here comes the decent picture

the Swiss Jakuns... *missing chong'en *

My kalyana mitras.. They have walked with me and I grew up with them... They thought me a lot to be who I am today...

Fairytales reunion after dunno how long.. sad thing that only left the few of us... Yeeteng, Melissa, WeiThian, Jamie n Yixiong is in overseas... Special thanks have to go to the twins, Han and Fan "those two that is beside me in Pink", for they made it for my b'day.. they are the ones that is forever MIA...

Swiss Jakuns.. This are the people who have been lifting me up in switzerland.. supporting each other to stand strong and finish our exchange year.. catching up with them is like bringing myself back to 2005 in Switzerland.. the memories.. the happenings.. the stories... Its jsut there inside us..

Ice crim @ Wai Chien, Apple @ Sue, Chocolate @ Simran, Mango @ Michelle.. see the box Wai Chien is holding?? is the best gift i got..

I wanna thank all of you that made it to my party...

Fairytaler : Kamtong, Jhwa, Han, Fan and Huey Huey

Kalyana Mitras : Vanessa, Wei Chiang, Sze Huey, Vincent, Geetha, Ming Huiy

Swiss Jakuns : Izra, Sharmin and Sharon

Uni Friends : Wai Chien, Kim Han, Tee Yew, Michie, Simran, Alvin, Chee Hoe, Joji, K, Agus, Grace, Hong Nien, Hendra, Chee Chan

It was a very very enjoyable birthday to have all that means a lot to me to be here to share the moment together with me.. I'm sorry that I was going all around and couldn't spend much time with everyone... Hope You guys did enjoy the nite as much as I did.. Again.. Thanks for coming... MUAXXxxXxx...

Thank for all the birthday wishes, Birthday calls, Birthday email, Birthday messages that i receive from all over the worlds... Thank you for remembering it was my birthday..

Presents time

All this is from Ice Crim.. I got 5 seperate presents from her... On my birthday itself, i got the Book, the wallet card and a big red apple 'the real apple fruit' inside the box( the bear design box).. I have to finish up the apple after the filling dinner in Station1... "An apple a day, keeps the doctor away" was was she said to me.. On friday, during the party, she got me another apple in the rainbow colour box which I had to eat also... Finally after cutting the cake, She gave me my REAL present for my 21st birthday.. DKNY APPLE... OMG.. I was so happy and excited... words just couldn't come out from my mouth cos I was all melted inside. not to forget mention she had make a big scene be4 my b'day insisting that I have to open her REAL present in front of everyone.. having told that it was something "personal" which made me wander.. not wanting to open it in public.. BUT its all okay now because its the Apple DKNY which I eyed for a very very long time d... Thank dear.. u're the sweetest dear.. Love you Loads my dear daughter... muaxx

By now u should have figure out why I have the name "apple"

This is a personal give from Kim Han with my name on it.. its now hanging on my phone... I love it a lot especially the dolphin... Thanks dear... Now I have something to hang on my phone, and its from u.. muaxxx

A jacket from Michelle and Simran... Thanks dear.. u guys knew I was looking for a jacket and you got it for me.. I'll definitely always use it in Uni.. with such striking colour, i'm sure everyone can spot me from far!!! hehehe thank dears..

The bag and the MCKY belt is from Kim Han, Tee Yew and Chee Hoe.. The Males of the family... Thanks a lot dears... another striking colour present... hehehe.. muaxxx

This glow in the dark stars are from Alvin..

Present from Agus, Chee Chan. Hendra, Hong Nien and Grace

the Birthday card from Uni friends...

This is from my Kalyana Mitra with a note inside " its time to try something different" thanks dears

This is from Sze Huey my Cute cute senior , and also from Ming Huiy... Thank you.. =>

Pressie from Sharon with the ICE LEMON TEA...

This is from Sharmin...

A card from Izra babe..

The card that came all the way from Australia.. from my Darling Teng.. muaxx muaxx.. thanks dear for the card and for calling me...

Thian: You card haven't arrive yet... but don't have to be sad or feel bad.. its really okay... Its the heart that counts and it sufficient for me k.. You already called me once u got back from ur hols so it made it back d.. so don't worry k..