NeW sKin

I haf a New Skin for my Blog now.. woohooo... i wanted 2 change it all dis while but i thought it was toooo complicated so i didnt dare 2 take the challenge 2 change it.. BUt nOW lOOK wat haf i done 2 my blog.. a whole new SKin.. Thanks to big meow.. smuakz.. thanks so much.. took me few days 2 edit the template n still a lil bit more 2 go.. but i love my new skin.. dont u guys think its nice?? I was SOoo happy yesterday.. I FINALLY took up the courage n solve the BIGGEST problem DAT i was facing here in Switzerland.. FInally its over for me.. n i hope after dis things will oni get better n not go worst.. but i also must do my part la.. woohoo.. problem solve by speaking under the hot sun.. haha.. Big Meow u must gif prezzie 2 small meow for her courage k.. hehe.. oops abit the TAMAK tim.. but anyway thanks 4 all ur courage n support.. 2day i woke up earlier den usual..woke up at 9am cos gotta go 2 the post office n send a letter.. post office close at 10am.. went 2 photostat some document in Denner den drop it in the post office den came home.. went i left the hse dad ask me whether i am cycling or walking 2 the post office cos he know when i just wake up i abit blur 1 ma.. so i told him i walking cos i dun wanna fall off the bike n he laugh.. in the evening went 2 watch a show.. 2 of my host cousin is performing.. the show was really nice.. didnt regret following mom 2 watch just the lil screw up weather cos it was raining.. Dats All for DIs post.. MISSING EVERYONE BACK HOME..

Look i haf clean my room.. does it look better den the last pic i show about my room?? 

ITs ME.. its taken when i was in France 4 like 30min.. 

I'm Back to Blog

hey.. its been ages since i last blog.. more den 2month i didnt blog here d.. dunno y just didnt feel like blogging so left my blog 4 somethin but now i am BACK... 21june2005 is officially the start of summer.. n now i am on summer holidays.. i am having 9weeks of summer holiday.. long right n my other malaysian frens r not on holiday yet so its kinda bored 4 me for the time being.. 4 the pass 2 month life been full of ups n downs ler.. but things r ok n ntg has gone 2 bad except 1thing la.. not gonna say anything about it also.. i haf started school in Lausanne on the 13/5/2005 in Gymnase La Cité.. its the oldest Gymnase n even my dad here was from dat school.. i haf travel abit in switzerland.. When 2 Zurich one weekend 2 meet up wif all the malaysian dat came.. dat was the 1st time we all meet up. went 2 Solothurn as well.. its where sharmin is staying, luzern where Izra is staying.. i also visited a Cave here.. its very nice n cold inside.. i haf went 2 a small musical concert wif my parents n it was ok oni.. den i also went 2 a show wif my grandparents.. its a Ballet Performance.. the trainer n the founder of dis ballet school is kinda well known in the world dats wat my mom told me.. i didnt know him but i think those who learn ballet will haf heard of him be4.. Bejart is his name.. the performance was really fantastic n the hall was full house.. it was really nice n thanks 2 my grandparents i get 2 go n watch.. i went 2 Europa Park in Germany last saturday... its was really fun.. its like genting n lagoon la but they r rides which r more exciting n seems more safe 2 me compare 2 lagoon n genting la.. Well 4 my summer holidays i haf plan few things 2 do.. i Plan 2 go 2 London wif Chong'en n her host sister.. hopefully everything goes fine n i get 2 go cos chong'en's mom has already booked the ticket 4 me cos the price is increasing everyday.. i will b in London for 6days.. its gonna be cost quite alot so i am gonna pay myself 4 dis trip.. will ask daddy 2 send my money over 4 my trip..tge last week of july i will hang out wif two of my malaysian frens.. we will b sleeping over in each others hse n visiting places around our area.. in August was suppose 2 go 2 sweden for 2weeks wif my family but laurent couldnt get enough holiday so we dun haf enough time 2 go 2 sweden.. but francine say dat we will still travel around europe but not Sweden.. Yip-pi.. Well dats all 4 my updates la.. will come back n blog more often.. smuakz..

me wif my 1st Snow Man 

Dis is MY ROOM 

its ME 

my 4the week here

Monday, 28/3/2005 Its still Easter holiday.. so there is no class 2day.. I didn’t so much 2day.. practically just hang around doing ntg at home.. dats all I can remember cos I doubt there is anything I did dat is interesting.. if not I sure will remember 1 ler.. hehe… Tuesday, 29/3/2005 It took me 15 min 2 get out from bed in the morning.. its was a long week end holiday so I couldn’t wake up so early 2day.. luckly I manage 2 leave the hse on time so I can walk 2 the train station n not run 2 the train station… class was different 2day cos I am the only student 4 dis week.. I kinda feel better when I am alone cos the teacher just focus on teaching me n I can ask anything when I dun understand… class ended at 10.30am.. meet Alicia outside my school den we took the bus n went 2 our grandmother's hse 4 lunch… spent almost 2hour there.. after dat we took the bus back 2 lausanne.. Alicia went n do her things n I went back 2 my school 2 wait 4 my godmother.. was suppose 2 meet her 2day.. she was already waiting 4 me outside my school when I arrive so w took the bus n went 2 her hse.. spent almost 2hours in her hse talking… after dat I took the train n came home.. meet Alicia in the train so we came home 2gather… Wednesday, 30/3/2005 woke up early n got ready 4 class.. baked pie 4 my breakfast.. abit the malang 2day.. I accidentally touch the hot pan wif my hand n got blister on 2 of my finger.. arh was so pain but cant do much dat time cos it was time 2 leave the hse if not I will miss my train.. so put some toothpaste on my finer grab my breakfast n bag n left the hse.. class was from 10-12.15pm 2day.. I was shock went I went 2 class cos I say the boy.. he's course ended last week but he came 2day dunno y.. but dun care la… after class I went 2 the train station 2 meet Alicia.. we r going 2 Geneva 4 2days…. bought the train ticket n we got on the train n left Lausanne n headed 2 Geneva.. Irina was waiting 4 us at the train station in Geneva.. we went n walk around Geneva from 1.30pm-5.30pm.. we visited the big fountain in Geneva.. I dunno wat dey call it but I call it a fountain.. went 2 Irina's hse after the walking's we did in Geneva.. had dinner in her hse.. aunt cook dinner but it didn’t taste nice cos the rice was 2 soft.. she put 2 much water 2 cook the rice.. at nite we watch 2 DVD's.. Mean girls n another English movie.. I don’t know the name of the movie.. it was 1am when we finish the 2nd movie.. so we went 2 bed.. Thursday, 31/3/2005 Class was cancel 2day cos I couldn’t attend it.. I woke up at 9.30am.. but was lying down on the bed doing ntg till 12pm.. went out of the room n was chatting wif aunt in the living room waiting 4 alicia n Irina 2 wake up.. We had our brunch at 1.30pm.. after dat we change n went out.. went walking around Geneva again.. 2day we visited dis big church in Geneva.. we left Geneva at 5pm n reach home around 6pm.. didn’t do much after dat.. watch tv n sleep early cos was having class the next day.. Friday, 1/4/2005 April fool day.. dis years April fool wasn’t fun.. cos I wasn’t wif my frens.. so ntg happen dis years april fool.. no laughter no ntg.. anyway I started my day wif French class from 9-11.15am.. after class I walked around Lausanne be4 I get on2 the train n came home.. I ate a super heavy lunch 2day.. ate so much thing.. at nite I went out wif alicia n her fren.. we went 2 the pub in Lausanne n we played pool.. left the pub around 11pm n we went 2 another pub near her fren, Melissa's hse.. I was darn tired n my stomach wasn’t feeling really well.. around 12.30am Melissa's father came n pick us n he was so kind we fetch Alicia n me home 2 Pampigny.. we plan 2 overnite in melissa's hse cos it was late n we had no train 2 come back but we were lucky.. hehe.. Saturday, 2/4/2005 Woke up at 10.30am 2day.. went on9 n chatted wif jhwa cos he was the oni 1 on9.. after alicia woke up n eaten her breakfast we both tidy n clean the hse.. Laurent n Francine is coming back from their holiday 2day.. they were away 4 holiday in Spain for 10days.. they came back in the evening.. Alicia n me each got a pencil case.. a cute pencil case n a bar of nougets.. mom said it’s the best nouget.. it seriously tasted dam delicious.. at nite I went out wif Alicia n Lea.. went 2 a party n meet other frens of Alicia… we came home at 1am n both Alicia n me were hungry so we ate bread n went 2 bed.. Sunday, 3/4/2005 woke up at10am did morning.. had my breakfast n was sitting around flipping through news paper n magazines.. after dat dad went out.. weather was good so he went 2 he mountain 2 fly.. I spent almost 3 hours sitting in front of the piano working out something 4 my darling teng.. after dat had lunch n was continuing my task wif my harmonica.. went out at 3pm wif mom.. we went 4 a Jazz festival.. came back around 6pm.. had dinner n now I am here blogging…

My 3rd week in Swiss

Monday, 21/3/2005.. As usual i woke up at 7am got ready eat my breakfast den off i went 2 the train station at7.40am.. its kinda not used 2 it cos of the week end n waking up late.. Take the train n went 2 class.. class was from 9-10.30am.. after class I was walking around in Lausanne cos my train is only at 11.48am n I haf 1 hour in between.. walked around 4 almost half n hour den went n sit the metro 2 the train station.. was sitting at the train station n waiting 4 the train.. reach home around 1pm.. mom was already having holiday so she was cleaning the bathroom cos after her holiday in Spain she will paint the bathroom.. so I prepare lunch 4 both of us.. its just frozen pizza I just put it in the oven n warm it.. after lunch I was practically doin ntg but just on9ing n watching tv.. Tuesday, 22/3/2005 Just the same routine in the morning everyday.. 2day class was till 11.15am.. extra 45 min 2 replace the class on Friday cos its holiday on Friday.. 2day I was suppose 2 meet my godmother so no need 2 take train home but my mom will pick me from school.. waited till 11.45am n mom arrive n told me dat the we wun meet my godmother 2day cos she was busy.. so we went around Lausanne cos she needs 2 go 2 the bookshop n get some books n we went 2 COOP 2 buy some groceries.. we had lunch in the food court in COOP.. haha.. guess wut?? I had Chinese food 4 lunch.. its my 1st Chinese meal after 3weeks.. its doesn’t take fantastic but I was satisfied wif the food la.. after we r done in Lausanne we went 2 Busigny.. we went 2 Migros.. Migros is a super market where things r cheaper.. Bought groceries 4 Alicia n me for our meals while mom n dad r away 4 holiday in Spain.. came home around 4pm… Dad was home already n he was cleaning his car.. The car will b their Hotel when they r in Spain.. Wednesday, 23/3/2005 Same routine in the morning but 2day I didn’t walk 2 the station.. mom n dad was just leaving 4 their holiday so they drop me at the train station.. good 4 me cos no need 2 walk some more the weather was abit cold due 2 the rain the previous nite.. class was at 10am 2day but I reach Lausanne at 8.55am.. so again I walked around looking at things.. class was till 11.30am.. after class I came home straight away.. around 2.30pm I followed my sister Alicia 2 Morges.. she is having a drink in Morges wif her fren Lea.. we came back around 6pm.. she prepare dinner n Lea came over 4 dinner wif us.. after dinner around 9pm we went 2 the pub in Pampigny 4 a drink wif Alicia's frens… we came back around 12am.. Thursday, 24/3/2005 same routine as the Tuesday morning n class was also till 11.30am 2 replace the remaining time 4 Friday lesson.. after class I also came home.. well 2day Alicia is doing baby sitting so I will b home alone till 6pm.. reach home around 1pm n I came on9.. no1 was on9 except thian so I told her 2 tell the others I will on9 back in45min.. I went n take my bath n cook my lunch.. Instant noodle was my lunch n I add egg n some veg in2 my noodle.. came on9 after day n was chatting wif abu n yt.. cos oni both of dem was on9 till later on Han on9.. was so happy 2day cos I get 2 on9 4 the whole afternoon n chat n update myself wif my frens.. it just felt so great.. Alicia came home around 6pm n she was sicker den the day be4.. the kid she baby sited was having flu so she caught the flu also.. we had Pizza 4 dinner.. Friday, 25/3/2005 Its holiday.. No class 2day.. haha so syok.. I woke up at 9.30am n I didn’t know wat 2 do.. Alicia n Lucas was still sleeping.. so I went back in2 my room n start sticking the pic on2 the wall.. after dat I went down n had my breakfast.. after breakfast I went on9.. upload pics in2 my yahoo 2 update my frens n family.. around 12pm. Lucas wanted 2 go jogging so Alicia n me followed him 2 jog around Pampigny… half way Alicia n me took the shorter way home n Lucas went the long way cos he wanna jog 20km.. didn’t do much 2day.. was holiday so I watch tv n on9 lor..ist public holiday 2day so der is no train 2day so wanna go out also cannot.. Saturday, 26/3/2005 I woke up around 9am.. I rearrange the pic on the wall cos it couldn’t stick on the wall n kept on droping2 the floor n I got fed up sticking it back up after the pics fall out over n over again.. I stick the pic in a different way n hope it wun drop off anymore.. after dat I called Yixiong wif the hse phone but using the credit on my phone card.. Aba was so shock 2 receive my call.. he didn’t expect me 2 call him n he sounded so happy.. he is leaving 2 Russia-Moscow 2nite 2 further his studies.. The fairytale r Waiting 4 him 2 become 'Dr Goh'.. after dat we can see doctor 4 free d.. haha.. Around 1pm Alicia n me catch the train n went 2 Lausanne.. we went 2 the cinema to watch 'Million Dollar Baby'.. the main actress acting was so good n so perfect BUT the stories wasn’t really interesting.. after movie we came home.. had Pizza 4 dinner again but some lil accident happen n 1 of the pizza ended up in 2 dustbin so Alicia n me share 1 pizza.. after dinner we went 2 Lausanne 2 meet her 2 frens 4 a drink in the Pub.. well swiss people really smoke a lot.. in 2hours they smoke like 20cigarates.. n I looked around me every1 was smoking.. EVERY1 in Switzerland smoke n drink no matter girl or boy once they r legal 2 smoke they will smoke n drink.. we left the puc around11pm n went 2 McD 2 buy burger.. we didn’t haf enough 4 dinner so both of us were kinda hungry.. after dat we took the 11.36pm train home.. when we reach Pampigny station it was raining.. so we had 2 walk under the rain home.. the rain wasn’t really heavy but den 10 min walk from the station 2 the hse was enough 2 make us all wet.. wasn’t soaking wet but my hair n jacket was all wet.. dried my hair change in2 dry clothes ate my Vitamin n went 2 bed.. Sunday, 27/3/2005 Woke up at 10am n was day dreaming in my room n suddenly the door bell rang.. I went downstairs n saw uncle Dominic.. he was suppose 2 pick us at 11.30 am but it was oni 10.30am n Alicia was still sleeping so I quickly woke Alicia up n told her uncle was here.. she was shock n she jumped out from bed n went downstairs.. Uncle Dominic told us it was 11.30am already.. 2day we changed the time 2hours faster.. Alicia n me nv see the news so we didn’t know the change of time.. we got ready n went over 2 grandparents hse.. Had a very heavy lunch in grandparents hse.. we sat at the dining table from 1.30pm till4pm.. we were eating all the time.. started from salad den pasta wif beef n every1 had 2 big plate of pasta wif beef cos it was dam delicious.. den followed by bread n CHEESE.. after dat was ice-cream.. the caramel ice-cream was so delicious n I had 2 bowls.. after ice-cream was coffee time.. there is biscuit n cake 2 go wif the coffee .. I didn’t take coffee but I ate the biscuit n cake.. after all the food I was dam freaking full.. I cant imagine myself eating so so so much but I did.. gonna grow real fat man.. haha but who cares.. the food r just 2 nice.. Uncle dominc fetch us home at4.30pm.. watch DVD wif Alicia n Lucas.. we didn’t eat dinner cos the lunch was 2 much 4 us n we were still full.. around 9.30pm Alicia's fren, Lena came over.. we watch another DVD 'Kill Bill'.. after dat I was very tired d so I went 2 bed.. Dis is about my week la… well I am kinda free now so I haf time 2 type longer blogs n more detail about my week..

2nd week in switz

i will continue my blog from friday cos i stop on lastu thursday of the week.. on friday i went 2 class as usual from 9-10.30am.. den i went 2 my host dad's office after dat.. my host grandmother came n pick me from der around12pm.. was at her hse the whole afternoon.. went 4 a walk at the lake in morges.. didnt really like cos the grass was wet n muddy.. had dinner home n went out wif my host sis.. we were going 4 a concert in lausanne.. the concert was ok ler.. its those rock ban kinda small lil concert.. came home dat nite around 1am.. my week end was spent in the mountains.. its an afs camp 4 all exchange students from the french side of swiss.. the camp was kinda bored la..but i meet people from other country.. make frens wif some of dem.. really cool frens esspecially those 3 from NZ n a girl from south africa.. well.. my 2nd week was likely the same as last week.. having class every day from 9am till 10.30am.. den in the afternoon its just more or less the same n boring.. Monday i went 2 my host dad's office after class.. he was oni working half so after his work we went 2 buy a printer 4 his dad.. went 2 his parents hse n help my host dad fix the printer 4 my host grandfather.. spent like 1hours++ there den we came home.. tuesday after class i went out wif my host mom.. we walked in lausanne 4 some time den we went 2 pick my host sis from her job place n we went 2 ikea.. my host sis love 2 go 2 ikea.. so we spent like 1hour an a half in ikea.. host mom bought me photoframe 2 put my photos.. wednesday after class i came home.. was darn bored the whole afternoon. i was on9 the whole afternoon n also watching tv.. thursday after class i went 2 my host dad's office again.. he is working half day also.. but after work he is going 2 ffly so i followed him 2 the mountain.. seeing him set his hang glider.. den looking at him took off from the ground n flew in the air.. its darn cool.. he is gona bring me fly when the weather is better... while he was flying i went walking around the small village.. on friday after class i went 2 my host dad's office 4 lunch.. so happy jhwa called me.. den i went n meet my host sis after dinner.. teman her n her fren 4 shopping.. Saturday i went 4 ice skating in GENEVA.. well transportation here is so freaking expensif.. the train fare cost u a bomb man.. the bus fairs also dam freaking expensif man.. skating wasnt really fun la.. but it was nice 2 meet other AFS student whom r already here 4 6 month.. they told me thier experince n all lor.. its dam cool la meeting dem.. dinner was eaten at home.. oni me n my host dad is home 4 dinner.. my host mom is working late n my host sister went out 4 some party.. Sunday which is 2day was ok.. did ntg in the morning.. in the afternoon help my host mom wif her com stuff n all.. went 4 a walk at the forest wif my host mom in the evening.. well the air is so fresh n its so windy n cooling.. went 4 dinner in my host dad's frens hse.. its his frens b'day..was super bored der cos i didnt know wat they were talking.. his fren had 2 daughters.. his 4 years old daughter was so hyper.. jumping up n down non stop.. i was der 4 like 3hours n i had seen her fall of the chair like 4 time.. twice at the sofa n twice during dinner.. DAts about my week la.. next 2 weeks is spring holiday but i dun haf holiday.. my host parents will b off 2 spain 4 10 days 4 holiday.. so oni me n my host sis will b home.. once in a awhile my host bro will come home also... miss u guys in malaysia loads man.. smuakz...

SwItz

well..2day is full the 1st week i am here in switz.. life been going on better compare 2 the beginning few day.. weather is still cold here..6degree... everyday i'll take the train n change 3 times 2 reach my school.. gotta walk somemore oni can reach the school... well walking in a cold weather is definately dam teruk man.. but i'm abit use 2 it d.. living here in switz really need 2 walk alot.. if u r lembap, den life gonna b really tough.. lucky i am ok but 4 me i still feel the walking is 2 much.. dam tired wan u know... On tuesday after class i took the bus alone 4 the 1st time n went 2 my host dad's office.. den he fetch me 2 my host grandparents hse cos no1 can take care of me.. den i had a walk near dat hse wif my host grandmother.. host mom came n pick me around 5pm n we came home.. on wednesday i took a train wif my host mom n host sis 2 school.. did my train passes n all.. so now take train n bus no need 2 buy ticket d.. trains n buses here r dam bloody expensif mna.. really kills u man the fares.. after class meet my host mom n we went 2 morges 4 lunch.. took the train back at 2 n came home.. at nite i watch tv wif my host sis in the tv room.. 2day is thursday.. its spm result day.. well my frens back in malysia is not doing really great.. half of them r so not in a mood.. becos i was so worried about my big baby thian i bought a phone card 2 call her.. she wasnt home when i called her so i call my precios lil sis.. so nice 2 hear her voice again.. den i also called my another big baby yeeteng.. she was also not very happy.. but sure happy 2 hear me ler... muhahahha.. well my result is not good.. i'm very not happy about it but well cant do anythin 2 change it also.. dunno all my result yet so 2molo oni i will know.. mom gonna get it 2molo in school.. THIAN.. stay strong k.. the result is out n we cant do anythin2 change it.. its over n gone.. forget about it n dun think about it.. u haf other more important thing 2 do n worried about.. so dun bother about the result anymore k.. remember ur promise.. i now u need time n i'll gif u time.. but after 1 week pls make sure u r ok d.. i dun wan my big baby 2 b upset so long.. its not healthy ya.. when u sad think about me cheering u up.. think about all the happytime fairytale spents 2gather.. SMILE my dear... Teng.. u 2 must stay strong k.. i'm not so worried about u but still i'm worried.. i know its tough 4 u dis time but hold on.. u haf me suporting u.. sorry 4 leaving u wif all dis burden's.. take good care of urself k.. u n thian is my big baby n well my worries is aloways on u... fullfill ur promise k.. i trust u can n i haf faith in u my dear.. Vanessa.. well u r so stresed up lately.. chill dear.. i know u can overcome all dis n dun think so much about the stupid idiot dat is giving u prob k.. i'm sure u can make a bright future out of the youth group.. i haf supported u since day 1 n dis support will nv fade away but support u even more.. but always remember think be4 u do.. dun put emotions in2 decision.. think practically.. i know u r better den me in all dis so i haf no worries 4 u.. smile cos u r the rainbow of every1...

i'm in Switz d

i'm in switzerland 4 few days d.. well the flight was tiring.. 13hours.. butt n neck dam pain.. cried few times in the plane.. thanks 2 the fairytale member.. i love the booklet alot.. thankz alot my dears... leaving the airport was dam dam dam hard man... its leaving everythin back n walkin on alone n the future is unknown.. walking in n leaving them behind was so so so painful 2 me.. well its my choise so i hafta bare wif it.. while i'm inside made few calles.. called my ever best ji mui.. i love her so much n i miss her so much.. she cried alot n i 2 cried lot.. call jia yen n tiny meow.. every call i made also end wif tears.. its normal i suppose... read all the letters, cards n the booklet in the planr... tears roled down n i cant stop it.. reach swity n my host mom n host dad came n pick me from the airport of zurich.. my journey has not ended yet.. i travelled another 3hours in the car 2 reach the hse.. by the time i reach my butt dam pain.. dam tired.. i'm still not use 2 the time here.. i'm still in the malaysia time.. i need time 2 addapt the change.. 4 the week end i was in the mountains wif my host family n few of her relatives.. they r all very nice 2 me.. its was darn cold there.. wore so many layers but still feel the cold... played in the snowit was dam syok.. 2day i went 4 my first french class.. its not easy.. hard i should say.. really need 2 work extra hard on it... gonna has dis intensif french class 4 the whole month.. den afterdat i dunno yet.. SInce the day i left.. everyday also i cried.. i really miss every1 back home.. i miss my family, my kalyana mitra's, fairytale member's n lil sis n every1.. well as i promise i will stay strong n i will keep 2 my promise.. i miss every1 so so so much n i love u guys so so so much.. take care ya evey1... smuakzzzz...

LaSt dAy In MaLaYs!a

2day is 2/3/2005.. 2day will the last nite i spent in malaysia.. the last nite i'm gonna sleep on my perfect bed.. 2molo i'll be leaving 2 switzerland.. i'll b far away from home 4 a year.. i dunno wat will my life b after 2day.. but wat i know is i'm gonna miss each n every1 of u here in malaysia loads.. BE4 i leave, i sincerly wanna thank each n every1 of u who has help me in the pass.. thank u 4 giving me a helping hand n guide me through life.. i would also wanna appologize from each n every1 of u if i had ever say or do anything which may hurt or harn u.. i nv intend 2 hurt or harm any1.. I am some1 very direct therefore i may not know i haf hurt u.. I'm sorry 2 any1 if i haf ever hurt u all.. thanks u every1 4 being my fren.. thank u 4 accpeting me in 2 ur life n let me b ur fren.. TO all my frenz: teng, thian, mel, jamie,siew, shi yin, vanessa, jiayen, sawkim, ming huiy, han, fan, jhwa, kamtong, yixiong, chiang, jiok... Thanks u 4 ur being my fren.. u all haf make an impact in my life.. u all haf guide me through life n nv left me no matter i'm walking through my upz or downz.. u all nv left me when i needed u all.. thanks u 4 tolerating wif my bad attitude n mostly thanks 4 loving me as ur fren.. i love each n every1 of u very much n i will 4 ver n ever cheerish dis frenship among us till my very last breath on earth.. u all change me 2 be a better person.. i'm now more cheerful, more happy n more patient.. thanks alot my dear frenz.. pls promise me dat u all will take care of urself.. Never gif up but continue working hard.. SMile alwayz.. stay strong n stay happy.. there is up n downs in life.. we will just face everythin wif n open heart n learn from mistake.. love u all loadz.. vanessa, well be4 i go i just wanna let u know even though wat ever happen, things will nv change in my heart.. u r still as important 2 me as be4.. i will still love u r who u r n respect u as who u r.. stay strong my dear.. lead the youth group 2 a better future.. i haf trust n confident u can do it.. prove 2 those people who look down on u.. be pround of urself as i'm proud of who u r.. the words here r all sincerly from my heart.. SMile always as u r the rainbow of every1.. love u load.. u will remain my best ji mui 4 ever.. Dis post mayb my last post.. i dunno whether i haf internet connection when i'm there.. but i'll try my best 2 get internet connection n let u all know my condition there..

TearS

we finally woke up around 9.30am.. woke thian n jamie up n got them 2 go breakfast wif us.. poor thian got ready n waited 4 us 4 30 min..we all dam bian tai la.. early early morning somemore wanna pillow fight, human stacking n all silly things.. we got so excited torturing each other n didnt wanna leave yet so poor jamie gotta walk2 my hse..finally left my hse at 10.45am n went n fetch thian.. went 2 paramout3 breakfast... the shop was dam packed.. waited 4 dam long till we got a atble.. somethin rediculous happened.. non of us realises dat kamtong n soofan was still in the car.. we left the car n han just locked the car.. both of them was in the last sit n no1 realises it.. we all thought they went 2 photostat kamtongs note cos in the car he kept on saying he wanna photostat.. they thought we were just playing wif dem so they just waited in the car.. on the other hand non of us realises they were still in the car nv bother asking y they took so long 2 come 2 the restaurant.. well fan finally called n ask me 2 get the car keys cos he is in the car.. he said he dam hot n i just simply answered 'so wat' cos i didnt believe.. me n han went 2 the car n we found out the both of dem were really in the car.. me n han couldnt stop laughing.. we even cross the road nv see car n got HON by the car.. dangerous man.. every1 found out n we all sat in the restaurant laughing non stop.. Left the restaurant around 11.45am n i was like shit.. i gotta b in the temple by 12pm n i'm late.. went 2 jhwa's hse 2 get the car but shit his bro took his keys.. waited 15min till he got the keys n we rush back 2 my hse.. i change n other packed their things n tidy the hse.. left the hse at 12.15pm.. jhwa rush me down 2 the temple n i reach around 12.30pm.. rush in2 the temple n walked up 2 audi.. meet jiayen downstairs n she said she going back d.. heart broken cos i came 2 c her, nvm continue heading up n meet van at the stairs.. seh said she gotta go home, heart broken even more.. another fella dat i rush all the way 2 spent time wif.. didnt reach the 1st floor n i turn back down.. wanted 2 go 2 bell's hse n collect my thing from her but ended up talking 2 jia yen..mood was super bad.. not blaming any1 cos its my fault dat i'm late but come 2 think of it its my last week in the temple n i rush all the way.. went up n borrowed harmonica from huiy.. i blow all the songs i know n i can find in the hymm book which can b blown in C key.. dats wat i do whenever i'm unhappy la.. huiy was dam worried bout me. seeing me like dis.. sorry gal.. well i tried so hard helding the tears back while blowing the harmonica.. well i succeded.. no tears drop when i bid goodbye 2 every1 after jhwa called n tell me he is here d.. Got up 2 jhwa's car holding back the tears.. dis stupid jhwa say me not in a good mood n keep on wanting me 2 tell him y.. i ask him 2 just leave me alone but he didnt n just keep on forcing me 2 tell him wats wrong.. i couldnt take it anymore n tears role down my chick.. he was stone 4 awhile la.. so just left me n drove me 2 subang la.. but he keep on making me laugh.. thanks ah kor.. thanks 4 cheering me up.. went 4 lunch wif the BOD's n rotarian in subang parade..waited 4 jhwa 2 come n pick me in lucinda's car n he finally came after 20min.. silly ah kor went wrong way.. SOrry ah kor.. u should ha ftold me u were sleeping.. i know u dun wanna tell me cos u promise 2 fetch me home after my lunch.. came back 2 TTDI n went 2 ayamas cos he wanted 2 buy food..so ended up i drove his car n he ate in the car.. bought soya bean n went 2 find thian.. after dat went home lor.. folded all the clothes den bath den went 2 grandpa's hse.. its gonna b my last dinner der.. Dinner was great.. its the last time i'm gonna eat lui cha be4 i leave.. spent time playing wif lil cuz cos i'm gonna miss him like crazy.. got angpow from uncle n aunts.. upon leaving grandpa's hse i felt the sadness in me again.. i know i'm gonna cry cos i'm gonna miss all my relative's.. came home n i came on9 straight..felt so good when i say thian on9.. tears flow when i was talking 2 her.. i just cant stand the feeling.. tears was flowing when i was typing the last post, when i was talking on the phone wif lil sis, when i was reading thians's blog n also when i am typing dis blog.. tears just flow whenever i think dat i'm leaving.. I've made a very selfish decision.. i've decided 2 put a fullstop 2 the relationship.. i've hurt him deep enough which it was a pain2 me as well.. but i haf no choice..i'm selfish.. i cant stand myself suffering.. sorry 4 putting the suffering on u.. i'm 2 having the suffering but i've 2 choose.. i've made him feel really dissapointed n sad so he'll gif up on this relationship.. u may say i'm selfish 4 hurting him so deepyly.. but its 4 his own good..

Farewell

Saturday, 26 February 2005: I woke up n went 4 breakfast wif my family.. was suppose 2 haf breakfast wif lil sis but didnt cos she was still sleeping.. after breakfast came home n i went out again.. i went 2 Melissa's hse 2 collect my camera.. around 11.45am i went 2 lil sis's hse.. well finally i get 2 spent a lil time wif her n it will b the last time i get 2 spent time wif her be4 i leave.. the feeling was so great spending time wif her.. she nv fails 2 make me smile n laugh.. even though i am in a super duper bad mood she can turn my mood upside down.. i'm really very glad n happy dat i got her as my lil pet sis.. i nv regret loving her so much or even over pampering her.. its all worth it.. came home around 1.30pm.. got ready n waited 4 jhwa 2 come n pick me.. we r suppose 2 go 2 MV 2 collect the things be4 heading 2 SP but cos he came late due 2 the jam so we headed 2 SP straight.. went 2 red box n got the room.. well every1 said they will b abit late so me n jhwa was waiting 4 them lor.. both of us sing n sing n sing.. time passes so fast.. 1 hour 30 min pass n still oni 2 of us was in the room.. we sang the same song more den 5 times d.. i was kinda piss la.. den thian n jamie came so it was 4 of us.. the others finally arrived after 2hours of me waiting.. ITS MY FAREWELL.. they brought Yi Xiong wif dem.. so happy 2 see him.. i miss him so much.. I wasnt angry cos they were late la.. i know there is sure a reason 4 the late arrival of dem.. Well.. 15 min after they all arrive me n jhwa left.. we rush 2 Mv to get my stuff n bought yixiong the pink giordano polo t.. rush back 2 sunway straight away after dat but went 2 meet mom 4 10 mins in sunway also.. got back in red box at 6.30pm.. just in time 2 spent the last half n hour wif dem in red box.. gaf them the prezzie i did 4 each of dem.. i'm glad dat every1 love the cup.. sorry dears if the pic is not nice.. took pics in red box be4 we leave.. went 2 perng's hse after dat 4 awhile.. its perng's b'day party wor so drop by lor..my mood wasnt really god la.. i dunno y but i think is becos i'm leaving n i'm gonna miss dem so so so much.. we went 4 dinner in Pizzaria in SS2.. food was okler.. did alot silly stuff like usual la us.. thian wasnt feeling well.. my poor darling vomitted few times.. went 2 thians hse after dinner n i opened my prezzie der.. a box full of tit-bits.. each n every tit-bits has a message on it.. i'm so touch wif it.. den i got a t-shirt which they draw on it, a heartshape rainbow pillow n mel's umbrella.. Thanks so much dears.. i'm really surprise wif the gifts n truely touch wif wat u all did 4 me.. i'm sorry 4 not showing appreciation when i open the prezzie yesterday.. mood wasnt good but wat u all did has already touch the bottom of my heart.. after dat came back 2my hse.. teng, fan, han kamtong n jhwa is staying overnite in my hse.. fan kamtong han n jhwa was busy chatting on9 when teng was taking her bath n the guys took turn 2 take their bath.. We all chatted in the living room after every1 finish bathing.. went n cooked maggi mee 4 jhwa fan n myself.. hungry ma.. its 3am dat time n dis thian haven sleep yet somemore she is sick.. she called me n got sounded by me.. after me the phone was passed 2 every1 n she practically got sounded by every1.. after dat she got no choice but 2 take her medicine n sleep.. kamtong was sleeping d after dat but while we having pillow fight he suddenly wake up n throw pillow 2wards us after dat went back 2 sleep again.. suddenly teng fan han jhwa n me started a pillow fight.. dam funny man we all.. in the middle of the nite having pillow fight.. our legs r so cham.. got whcked so hard.. my legs were RED.. dis jhwa n teng la whack until so hard till can c the hand print on my leg.. teng's leg worst let jhwa whack.. we all finally settle down around4.30am.. i sleep around 5am.. i woke up few times in between la.. there is once when i turn my head den dis jhwa also turn his head 2ward the same directionas me den our head hit 2gathers.. I'm really gratefull n thankful dat i meet dis bunch of frens.. having dis bunch of fren has definately added in uncountable colours in2 my life.. After meeting dem i became more cheerful n i smile more often.. i became a happy gal.. laughter became part of my life.. having dem wif me there is oni laughter.. all the unhappy things will just dissapear.. without dem i really dunno how my life will b.. our sweet memories will last 4ever n nv fade away.. it has already b engraved deep inside my heart.. i'm gonna miss dem so much our big family: teng, thian,melissa, jamie, fan, han, kamtong, jhwa, yixiong.. not 2 forget my kalyana mitras: vanessa, jia yen, chiang, kim, ming huit,jiok.. NOt 2 forget SIew yin jie jie n Also my lil sis shi yin.. tHerE will B nO1 i WiLL eVeR LoVE aS mUcH aS i LoVe u GuYS!!LOVE U ALL LOADS...... SMUAKZZZ

Surprising ParTy

woke up n went breakfast wif my family dis morning.. den came back n i was in front of the com.. My host mom replied my email.. so happy 2 receive her mail..i replied her mail straight away.. its snowing in Pampigny now.. its gonna be cold man.. left hse around 12pm 2 1utama.. walk the whole 1utama 2 find the pig but coulnt fine.. meantime i also went 2 the winter shopings 2 check out the winter clothing dat i need 2 buy.. left 1uatama at 12.50pm n went 2 school 2 pick kang.. reach home around 1.30, drop kang den left 2 CHS.. waited 4 jhwa n teng 2 arrive den we left 4 lunch in amcorp in 2cars.. jhwa teng mrlim n kahpoh in 1 car den me n kah ee in another car.. we ate at dis korean restaurant there.. well the food is quite nice la.. the price also not 2 expensive.. AFter lunch, jhwa fetch teng n kah poh home den i also went home 2 get somethin.. came home bath den i went 2 MV.. waited 4 jhwa 2 come den we went n settle some stuff.. well it took dam long time man.. in between we went 2 get my bag.. well the bag cost me RM269.25.. I was late 4 a party n i wasnt suppose 2 b late.. finsih up my work n gonna go back 2molo 2 do the touch up.. jhwa lead my 2 projet n i lead him 2 su-ann jie jie's hse.. reach there almost 8pm.. talk 2 jhwa outside jie jie's hse 4 awhile den he left d.. went in2 the hse n ate some food.. well i came 2 know its my farewell party.. i got a DUCK cake.. Vanessa thank 4 everythin.. i'm really touch wif wat u did.. love u loads dear.. thank u every1 who help in organising dis farewell party 4 me.. n thanks 4 HIDING it from me.. hehe.. i'm surely 2 miss u guys loads n obviously my cry baby cried la.. Left around 11pm n fetch sze huey n ming huiy home den i came home.. 5 min after i reach dad came home from his dinner.. came on9 talked 2 thian awhile n made her off9 2 rest cos she is not feeling well.. went 2 bath den talk 2 van on the phone 4 awhile.. now i'm here blogging.. gtg guys.. got a long day 2 go 2molo.. love every1 so so so much... van take care of urself k.. *6 dayz till the day i'm leaving*

FaMiLy PoTrAiT

well.. i woke up around 10 dis morning.. folded all the clothes n i was doing ntg after dat.. was watching tv, reading newspaper n on9.. around 1.30om i left hse n went 2 SS2.. wanna get my hair cut.. well.. i was at the saloon 4 more den 2 hours.. my hairstylist was so busy 2day.. got so many client.. even though i called n make an apoinment wif him at 1.45 but i oni got my hair cut around 2.45pm.. somemore half way he went n did the other client den came back 2 continue my hair again.. but it was ok la.. a very funny guy.. he got alot things 2 talk 1.. all dam zha dou 1 somemore.. suppose 2 meet lil sis at 3pm but couldnt make it so gonna c her on saturday ler.. reach home around 4.30pm.. bath den got ready n waited 4 dad 2 come back.. bro went out 2 pick yang from school den they will b going the the shop 1st.. Dad came back around 5 after picking gandparents.. we all den headed 2 SUnway.. reach der around 5.30pm.. i went n change while mom n granny get the make up done.. after changing the people did some make up 4 me den we r all ready 2 take the family potrait.. we took alot of pic.. was so hot.. the stupid studio's aircon dunno wast wrong cannot cold wan... gr........... well after everything is done i changed back into my clothes n we left 4 dinner.. it an early dinne cos it was oni 6.30 dat time.. dinner was delicious.. i ate so much... the craps were finger licking good man.. me growing fatter d man eat like dis everyday.. after dinner fetch granparents home den came home..

ShOpPiNgZ

i've been going out shopping everyday since Monday.... Monday... went 2 Mv wif my parents after sending yang 2 school.. picked up the puiter from Royal Selangor.. den we walked n buy things dat i needed...we also had our lunch in food junction... we could oni get few thing so after buying we went home.. poor lil bro was waiting 4 us in his frens mom's car outside the hse when we reach home... at nite after dinner dad brought me 2 1Utama 2 buy somemore stuff.. couldnt get the socks cos not confirm my leg size n the socks looks 2 big 4 me.. anyway got some stuff from guardian n we reach home around 10.15pm.. dats about my day on monday... Tuesday... i woke up around 9am.. was watching tv wif mom in the living room.. dad went out around 11 2 fix the streamyx bill.. he la nv pay the bill so the line was cut.. got a call from afs while i was watching tv.. gotta go send in my passport 2 them 2day.. n i got my host papers d so gotta collect it from AFS.. fetch bro 2 school wif mom around 12pm.. after dat came home n pick dad n we went 2 AFS in Atria there... went n hand in my passport n got my host paper.. i'm b going 2 Pampigny.. its a small village wif oni about 800 people.. its at the french side of switzerland.. i'm the oni 1 placed there.. my other 5 frens is placed at the german side of switzerland.. well.. dats my luck la.. hope 4 the best is wat i can do now.. after dat went 2 Ikano power center wif mom n dad.. we survey the bagpack we gotta buy.. it cost a bomb.. RM276 for the bag... well dad didnt buy cos he wanted 2 c other bags 1st.. we had our lunch in ikea.. the food there is delicious.. yum yum~~after lunch we went 2 popular.. bought a book about switzerland, a french-english dictionary, some stationaries n etc... left ikano power center around 3.30pm n went 2 lil bro's school in tropicana 2 pick him.. den came home.. dats about my tuesday ler... Wednesday... woke up around 9.30am.. mom n dad fetch me 2 seksyen 14 4 my dental check up.. my tooth was ok.. hhehe.. after the dental check up we went 2 jaya supermarket n metrojaya... bought a belt dat all.. den we went home cos gotta fetch bro 2 school.. around 12pm i fetch bro 2 school den i came back home n pick mom n dad.. we went 2 the citibank in KL.. dad bought 600 euro dollar in travels cheque n also changed 250 euro dollar cash 4 me.. 850euro dollar already cost more den RM4000.. gosh... its dam expensive man... after we r done in the bank we went 2 klcc.. bought some stuff n had our lunch there.. walked somemore after lunch den we left 2 central market.. we bought souvinier from der... we spent around RM300 der just 4 souvinior.. reach home around 7.45pm.. was dead tired d.. well i've been doin driving the whole day.. though it is tired but its fun..

gAtHeRiNg

Sunday... Well as wat i post be4 dis.. i sleep late the nite be4 n obviously i couldnt wake up.. mom came in 2 my room n woke me up.. i look at the clock n i jump outta bed straight away.. shit its 8.30am.. dam it.. i'm suppose 2 b there by 8.30am but now oni i woke up.. found out dad wasnt around n i hafta drive 2 temple myself if i wanna go early.. wash up changed den i went out d.. reach temple slightly be 9am.. lucky 2 get a parking n i went 2 grace 2 meet up wif van chiang n jiok... was not in a good mood cos lack of sleep n somemore need 2 wake up so early.. as usual i ordered roti telur n 2 sausage 4 breakfast.. we was in grace corner till almost 10am den jiok fetch chiang 2 LRT station while me n van went up 2 library.. talked 2 auntie pin pin 4 awhile be4 going up 2 library.. kim was in the library.. i sat beside her n sleep.. van came in talk 2 me 4 awhile den i continue sleeping.. around 10.30am we all went down 4 puja.. jy was already there so sat beside her.. after puja we stayed back at the shrine hall cos teacher ho wanna show us somethin.. after dat went back 2 class.. class was usual darn boring.. becos it was teacher ho's class so i couldn't send much sms.. was dead bored in class.. lucky jy was wif me.. hehe dunno y la she is 1 of those dat i will laugh when i'm wif dem even when i'm not in a mood which r rarely found near me.. after class i left straight back home.. drop jy at bangsar lrt station on the way home.. reach home change den jhwa came n pick me.. he send me 2 my primary class teacher's hse.. we having class reunion in teachers hse.. well met lost of frens which i lost contact d.. i cant recognise some of them.. stayed there for almost an hour den jhwa came n pick me.. went 2 secret receipi 4 late lunch at 3somethin.. after dat we went 2 find mel.. the silly ah gir left his specs in mel's hse.. its my last chance spending time wif mel be4 she leave n the next time she is back i'd leave d.. left her hse around 5.30pm cos she gotta eat n get ready d.. she's leaving 2 the airport around 6pm...jhwa fetch me home n left.. i took my bath n went 2 granpa's hse 4 dinner.. came back n i sleep at 9.30pm.. early right... i was 2 tired cos lack of sleep dis few days.. need 2 recharge ma.. hehe

OuTiNg =>

Saturday......... was so tired but i pulled myself outta bed at 9am 2 morning call jhwa.. he said he will wake up so i put down the phone.. he was suppose 2 reach my hse around 9.30am.. after i got ready i sat downstair n i fallen asleep on the sofa.. when i woke up again its was 9.30 n jhwa wasnt here yet.. i called him n found out he went back 2 sleep n he just woke up.. shit we're gonna b super late man.. he came n pick me at 10.30am.. well... dats so late but nvm la.. all of us sleep so late the day be4 cos of his open hse.. we reach tengs hse at 10.45am n reach the coffee shop around 11am.. tong fan n han was there d.. sorry make dem waited 4 us so long...ate ur breakfast n chit chatted there... after breakfast we went 4 hunting in shopping mall.. we went 2 piramid n hunt 4 pink shirt.. we found the perfect pink shirt we want in giordano but oni got guys wan.. so the guys bought the shirt.. we continue hunting pink shirt 4 the gals but failed 2 find it in piramid.. so we decided 2 go n find from 1Utama.. since jhwa parked his car in piramid d so we took 1 car oni which is the twins car la.. rexton ma big enough 2 fit us all.. muahahah.. SO we went 2 1Utama n haunt the whole 1U but still failed 2 find pink polo shirt 4 the gals.. ishk.. we finally went 2 giordana.. we saw dis pink Vneck shirt quite nice which we didnt saw in the giordana in Piramid.. yt was our model so she went n try the 2shirts.. we like the sleeve 1more so we bought the sleeve 1 4 the gals.. it was already 3somethin dat time.. gosh we spent like half a day hunting 4 our pink shirt... so we left 1utama n came 2 my hse.. we change n mom was like wow.. u all look like going 2 work or somethin... muahahahha.. jamie n thian came over 2 join us.. they 2 change in2 the pink shirt we bought 4 them.. we lou sang in my hse wif mom n dad.. yang was our camera man.. haha.. hope his skill is not 2 cha.. we chit catted in the living room till around 4.30.. took some pic in the living room den thian gotta go d.. sad wei.. so she left n jamie also left.. after 5 min we also left my hse n our next stop is jamie's hse.. went 2 jamie's hse n her hse got vvisitors.. so we all went 2 her room.. she was so paiseh 2 let us in2 her room.. but the usual us la the more u dun let the more we want 2 do..hehe so end up 7 fella including jamie squeeze in her room... muhahah.. we played card n chit chatted... haha poor yt was our targeted victim since the day be4.. her butt was the most kesian 1.. evert1 was whacking her butt.. haha.. all kena mel's virus d like 2 whack butt's.. we somemore did alot stupid bian tai stuff lar.. we left jamie's hse n guess wat jamie join us 4 4 the remaining outing.. so we all jumped in2 the car n we went 2 look 4 rodney... went n look 4 him in the mamak den went 2 his hse cos he wanted 2 follow us also n he wanna bath.. sta in his hse watching tv while waiting 4 him.. after dat we left n wanted 2 go wei wei's hse but she wanna haf dinner so we went 2 the twins hse n wait.. around 8somethin we left the twins hse n went 2 wei wei's hse in sri petaling... sat in her hse n chit chatted.. didnt make noise cos people's hse ma.. must gif good image 2 her mom.. well our usual tektik.. go 1 hse den end up the host will follow us out.. its happen 2 jamie in the evening n now wei wei.. she will follow us out... After leaving wei wei's hse we went 4 dinner in puchong.. nv eat alot la cos was kinda full also.. jhwa was hungry but he got no appetite d.. nvm la.. me as his lil sis gotta tam him eat la.. teman him walk the whole place twice oni finally order somethin 2 eat.. around 10 we left n went 2 kam tong's hse.. his dog dam cute man.. was at his hse until alomst 10.45pm den we left.. mel is home d so we can go her hse d.. went 2 mel's hse n reach around 11pm.. was at her living room den they wanted 2 haf a hse tour so we went la.. but the 'hse tour' was just poping in2 her room n its the end of the tour.. silly us.. again yt was the targetted victim.. jhwa was attacking her by pulling her legs.. me pula staying behind her 2 prevent her head from knocking the floor.. poor gal.. chit chatted alot in mel's place.. make dam alot noise also.. know la the mel's voice shout means ar dam loud wan.. we left around12.30am.. phones begin 2 rang n its time 2 go... jhwa fetch me n jamie home while han fetch the rest.. reach home slightly be4 1am.. came on9 4 a while took my shower den off i went 2 bed.. i cannot tahan d.. gotta wake up at 8am the next day 2 go temple somemore..