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we finally woke up around 9.30am.. woke thian n jamie up n got them 2 go breakfast wif us.. poor thian got ready n waited 4 us 4 30 min..we all dam bian tai la.. early early morning somemore wanna pillow fight, human stacking n all silly things.. we got so excited torturing each other n didnt wanna leave yet so poor jamie gotta walk2 my hse..finally left my hse at 10.45am n went n fetch thian.. went 2 paramout3 breakfast... the shop was dam packed.. waited 4 dam long till we got a atble.. somethin rediculous happened.. non of us realises dat kamtong n soofan was still in the car.. we left the car n han just locked the car.. both of them was in the last sit n no1 realises it.. we all thought they went 2 photostat kamtongs note cos in the car he kept on saying he wanna photostat.. they thought we were just playing wif dem so they just waited in the car.. on the other hand non of us realises they were still in the car nv bother asking y they took so long 2 come 2 the restaurant.. well fan finally called n ask me 2 get the car keys cos he is in the car.. he said he dam hot n i just simply answered 'so wat' cos i didnt believe.. me n han went 2 the car n we found out the both of dem were really in the car.. me n han couldnt stop laughing.. we even cross the road nv see car n got HON by the car.. dangerous man.. every1 found out n we all sat in the restaurant laughing non stop.. Left the restaurant around 11.45am n i was like shit.. i gotta b in the temple by 12pm n i'm late.. went 2 jhwa's hse 2 get the car but shit his bro took his keys.. waited 15min till he got the keys n we rush back 2 my hse.. i change n other packed their things n tidy the hse.. left the hse at 12.15pm.. jhwa rush me down 2 the temple n i reach around 12.30pm.. rush in2 the temple n walked up 2 audi.. meet jiayen downstairs n she said she going back d.. heart broken cos i came 2 c her, nvm continue heading up n meet van at the stairs.. seh said she gotta go home, heart broken even more.. another fella dat i rush all the way 2 spent time wif.. didnt reach the 1st floor n i turn back down.. wanted 2 go 2 bell's hse n collect my thing from her but ended up talking 2 jia yen..mood was super bad.. not blaming any1 cos its my fault dat i'm late but come 2 think of it its my last week in the temple n i rush all the way.. went up n borrowed harmonica from huiy.. i blow all the songs i know n i can find in the hymm book which can b blown in C key.. dats wat i do whenever i'm unhappy la.. huiy was dam worried bout me. seeing me like dis.. sorry gal.. well i tried so hard helding the tears back while blowing the harmonica.. well i succeded.. no tears drop when i bid goodbye 2 every1 after jhwa called n tell me he is here d.. Got up 2 jhwa's car holding back the tears.. dis stupid jhwa say me not in a good mood n keep on wanting me 2 tell him y.. i ask him 2 just leave me alone but he didnt n just keep on forcing me 2 tell him wats wrong.. i couldnt take it anymore n tears role down my chick.. he was stone 4 awhile la.. so just left me n drove me 2 subang la.. but he keep on making me laugh.. thanks ah kor.. thanks 4 cheering me up.. went 4 lunch wif the BOD's n rotarian in subang parade..waited 4 jhwa 2 come n pick me in lucinda's car n he finally came after 20min.. silly ah kor went wrong way.. SOrry ah kor.. u should ha ftold me u were sleeping.. i know u dun wanna tell me cos u promise 2 fetch me home after my lunch.. came back 2 TTDI n went 2 ayamas cos he wanted 2 buy food..so ended up i drove his car n he ate in the car.. bought soya bean n went 2 find thian.. after dat went home lor.. folded all the clothes den bath den went 2 grandpa's hse.. its gonna b my last dinner der.. Dinner was great.. its the last time i'm gonna eat lui cha be4 i leave.. spent time playing wif lil cuz cos i'm gonna miss him like crazy.. got angpow from uncle n aunts.. upon leaving grandpa's hse i felt the sadness in me again.. i know i'm gonna cry cos i'm gonna miss all my relative's.. came home n i came on9 straight..felt so good when i say thian on9.. tears flow when i was talking 2 her.. i just cant stand the feeling.. tears was flowing when i was typing the last post, when i was talking on the phone wif lil sis, when i was reading thians's blog n also when i am typing dis blog.. tears just flow whenever i think dat i'm leaving.. I've made a very selfish decision.. i've decided 2 put a fullstop 2 the relationship.. i've hurt him deep enough which it was a pain2 me as well.. but i haf no choice..i'm selfish.. i cant stand myself suffering.. sorry 4 putting the suffering on u.. i'm 2 having the suffering but i've 2 choose.. i've made him feel really dissapointed n sad so he'll gif up on this relationship.. u may say i'm selfish 4 hurting him so deepyly.. but its 4 his own good..