Begin happy but ended horrible

Reach temple around 8..went 2 mamak 4 breakfast wif kim..hafta jaga the kids 2sing 4 puja 2day..went back in2 temple at 8.20am..went 2 the hall n realise oni 3 kids were there n we haf 2 sing like in 30min time..so no choice..me ming huiy vanessa n jia yen haf 2 sing...the singing was so nice..i really like it so much just dat the 1st song we sang abit cacat la..but the other 2songs r ok.. After singing we went up 2 auditorium n chat..den we went 2 class..class ended early n we went back down 2 the auditorium..me jia yen kim ming huiy n vanessa were sleeping in the auditorium...all of us was so tired..haha but we end up didnt really sleep la..cos so many funny things happen..n we just couldn't stop laughing...its was really fun..after dat went down 4 choir...choir is always the time i dislike the most on sundays...vanessa should know y la..not gonna mention it here..so happy choir 2day ended early..after vanessa left i chatted wif su-ann jie jie n yun rong..i really chat alot wif jie jie 2day..after yun rong left we somemore chat den continue chatting in mamak... Left temple wif mom around 3pm...reach home n i went 2 sleep...woke up n went 2 granddad's place 4 dinner..sort of enjoy myself there la playing wif my 2 lil cuz..it was raining outside n they couldn't go out n play lantern..so i took them in2 the dining room..off the lights n light candle in the kitchen..they enjoy themself so much..i was hoping dat i didnt haf 2 grow up n just be a kid 4ever so i haf no need 2 face so many problems..but this is life wat can i do... came home n decided not going school 2molo..went 2 jamie's place 2 pass her somethin 2 pass 2 teng 2molo..after dat i call jia yen n bou jok wif her after putting down the phone n came blogging n my horrible time begin...mom n dad reach home around 11.45pm..dad started 2 lecture me cos i haven fold the cloths..i got pist of n kind of raise my voice cos i told him i will fold but he continues lectureing which was pissing me off..mom came out of the room n scold me 4 being rude 2 dad..n she started scolding me..say i nv do the work i'm suppose 2 do..somemore wanna talk 2 dad so rude..den say 'shannel 2day help u wash the cloth also u dun wanna fold..dat is ur job ...bla bla bla..' i nv ask her 2 do 4 me also u ask her 2 do is ur business la y wanna go n link it 2 me..after dat got scolded somemore...thanks 2 all my brothers la...complaine complaine complaine... y jie jie always can use the com...she having SPM la..y dis y dat...wat the hell.. cant u people just mind ur own business..cant get wat u wan so come n boy caught me la...F**k it man...mom sees anythim she mm song den put the blame on me..wat the HELL...... I really got so pist of.f..when i do extra work u nv say a thing...when i nv do lil thing u come n scold..scold nvm somemore wanna link old time story n scold 2gether...4 the same thing got 2 get scolding 4 so many times..y are mothers just so stupid n cant get a life...they just cant understand how i feel..being the only daughter n wif 3 bro's in the hse is not good at all...every1 things u r the only daugther sure very nice wan...its just all BULL shit...wanna watch tv cannot ..y.. cos my bro's wanna watch tv 3 againts 1..wat can i do fight wif them 4 the tv?? how??its 3 againts 1..fine den i use the phone la..say i talk 2 much on the phone,.. so i use com la..say i always use com..my bro's complaine me always using com they cant use.... Y cant they just think if they r in my shoe wat will they do..being the only daughter in the hse is very lonely ok..wat u wan me 2 do..watch tv wif them?? they watch wrestling n wan me 2 watch ?? my younger bro's haf partner cos both of them r oni 2 years different.. n i hate my older bro n he hate me 2..we just wun get along...he has his gf... n THANKS 2 his gf dat caused me more trouble den ever......all of them haf some1 2 play wif talk wif... but me..i'm just alone... wat u wan me 2 do..every1 needs accompany...so i talk on the phone go on9 2 talk 2 my frens la.. at least by doing dat i feel my sense of belonging in dis world..i still know there r friends who cares 4 me n love me as who i am...which i could nv find in dis hse...i feel so sanfu staying here...n now even more wif my bro's gf staying wif us...she is just a bitch 2 me..shouldnt call her bitch cos she is not QUALIFIED to be one..bitch atleast must have the face but she don haf she is just so ugly somemore always praising herself n thinks she is so pretty..get a life..so like 2 'cat hai' in front of my mom..do so many things 2 tham my mom happeee....think u r so great yar... FUcK OFF man..cant u just get on ur life n stop messing wif my life.. wanna haf relatioship wif my bro den haf la y wanna come n mess up my life.. my life is already like hell n now u haf made my life even worst..got me in2 more trouble den ever...the whole family didnt feel any different right...of cause u all didnt..because u r not effect..n u all r just so selfish...i just hate my family so much..wan somethin treat me so good after dat treat me like shit...is dis call family....i doubt so.. i already hate 2 stay in dis hse n now i even hate it more... sometimes i just thought of running away...i haf2 act as thou i' strong so dat i can demand 4 wat is mine in the family..always wearing a mask is just so sanfugot 2 hide everything n not being able 2 express out.. cant express the probs n suffering 2 my parents cos i tried be4 n it just made things worst be cos they wun understand n they will just put the blame on me..if its not becos i haf such good friend like vanessa, jia yen, saw kim, yee teng, shi yin, siew yin..i think i haf already became crazy becos of the depression..thanks 2 them becos i haf them in my life n i can share my problem wif them laugh wif them i can just be myself when i'm wif them..tears haf not stop driffting down my chick since i stared bloging just now...i'm really feel very san fu...n its really killing me... those who really care 4 me n understands me will understand wat i mean in my blog..y cant i just haf a family which cares 4 each other...i know life is full of ups n down but y is my life only wif downs n i can hardly find any ups...the only happee time i haf is wif my kalyana mitras but not my family..dis shouldnt be the way.. but its happening in my life..